Mar 27, 2006 17:01
My grandfather died tonight. This is the first real death I've had to deal with. I feel an obligation to comfort those trying to comfort me, or at least ease that moment.
I feel like I'm caving in in the middle.
I can't cry right now, I can't fall apart.
There's no one here who knew him. (Does that include me?)
I have too much to do tonight, tomorrow, tuesday...
Shouldn't this come first? On the one time it's what my mind is dwelling on, on the other he's already dead, mourning him later won't matter to him...
Can I afford to go home? It's too late, plane's already been booked.
Thank you Carrie / Shiona / Erica / Tweek / Chapter / Dave Taylor / Vinnie for understanding & trying.
I love you Nannie / Mom / Bob / Auntie Beth / Auntie Diane / Ricky / Julie / Jeff / Kim / Wendy / Chad
I love you Opa... I wish I knew you better....
I'm sorry I disappointed you, I'm sorry I didn't stay longer the last time I saw you. I think we both knew it would be the last time. I wish I could empathize better. I wish you could be there when I marry/have children.
The world is less without you.