Weekend at my daughter & s-i-l's
Yeah- so I'm "pet-sitting" for my daughter & s-i-l this weekend. Actually I've been here since yesterday.
I'm using my daughter's laptop. It's taking some getting used to but I'm getting the "hang of it".
So I managed to get my cousin in Canada all upset with me. Long story but now she's hurt, my sister is hurt and I'm hurt and well ... What can I say? But I am tired of trying to make amends to her. Seems like every time I turn around she's upset with something I've said or done. I think she's just as codependent as I am if not more so. She definitely tries to control others. Or maybe she's not actually trying to but she does it all the same. I am tired of walking on egg shells around her. Now she is mad at me and says she's removed me from her facebook. Whatever. She says it's only temporary because she says I am too negative and she needs to protect herself. Again-whatever. I told her to do what she needs to do. She seems to think that I am still upset and jealous of my sister coming up to visit her. I'm not. I was somewhat jealous at first but I'm over it. Now I am just upset that she has blown this whole thing out of proportion.
But I can't keep groveling at her feet. She makes me crazy.
I know- I shouldn't even let it bother me and I shouldn't even care. I wish I didn't. Again- I guess it's because of my codependent tendencies.
I can't even go to CR tonight because I don't want to be out after dark coming and going in Downtown Dayton.
But I sure could use being at CR tonight so I can release my feelings.
I'm using my daughter's laptop. It's taking some getting used to but I'm getting the "hang of it".
So I managed to get my cousin in Canada all upset with me. Long story but now she's hurt, my sister is hurt and I'm hurt and well ... What can I say? But I am tired of trying to make amends to her. Seems like every time I turn around she's upset with something I've said or done. I think she's just as codependent as I am if not more so. She definitely tries to control others. Or maybe she's not actually trying to but she does it all the same. I am tired of walking on egg shells around her. Now she is mad at me and says she's removed me from her facebook. Whatever. She says it's only temporary because she says I am too negative and she needs to protect herself. Again-whatever. I told her to do what she needs to do. She seems to think that I am still upset and jealous of my sister coming up to visit her. I'm not. I was somewhat jealous at first but I'm over it. Now I am just upset that she has blown this whole thing out of proportion.
But I can't keep groveling at her feet. She makes me crazy.
I know- I shouldn't even let it bother me and I shouldn't even care. I wish I didn't. Again- I guess it's because of my codependent tendencies.
I can't even go to CR tonight because I don't want to be out after dark coming and going in Downtown Dayton.
But I sure could use being at CR tonight so I can release my feelings.