a musicless song about my life in general/colorado
I gave my 2 weeks notice today, I knew it would suck but it didnt make it any easier. Leaving a home is consistently the most painful part of my life & its even more difficult considering I love all the people I work w/. It always hurts until I make it past that point of leaving and get on the road. I can pinpoint that moment everytime. Leaving on the subway to go to JFK, Waking up super early to catch a plane in Amsterdam, holy shit, sitting in front of the greyhound in sacramento, sitting in front of every greyhound station I've been to, and there have been alot, saying goodbye to my crew in vermont in front of that breakfest place we always went to. and now I'm getting ready to say goodbye to the frontrange. I could paint a picture of how it will feel as I give my last hug and walk to the train platform. That singular moment when I realize everything I've just done will become another dream and I have an entire lifetime a head of me. It strikes me alot harder when im by my self, but perhaps its because I seldom travel w/ anyone, and never a traveler. It's a warm kind of loneliness I hope to share w/ someone one day.
Thinking of it now reminds me of the beginning of waking life. Riding in the boat-car-ama-jig the captain says the key is to stay in a constant state of motion, always coming and always going "we're in motion to the ocean." Indeed we are.
MuchLove,
Brendan
p.s If you like, I'll be seeing some of you shortly, we wont be talking about cars
p.s.s traveling brings out the exostentialist in me
Thinking of it now reminds me of the beginning of waking life. Riding in the boat-car-ama-jig the captain says the key is to stay in a constant state of motion, always coming and always going "we're in motion to the ocean." Indeed we are.
MuchLove,
Brendan
p.s If you like, I'll be seeing some of you shortly, we wont be talking about cars
p.s.s traveling brings out the exostentialist in me