Meeting guides
these last few years have been a time of losing the ideas and ambitions that I used to have. Sometimes they have been more like liberations, while other times it feels like those same things were in fact amputations in disguise.
Recently I've been realizing how much of a loss stopping my comic book art was. At the time I felt really disillusioned and I seriously needed to get out of my depression that kind of painted most of my comic book art. But at the same time those comix had some really cool ideas and I could have become a better artist. Instead I just replaced my row of sharpened pencils for my guitar.
I used to want to write and draw comic books. every day, with every fiber of my body. I think I had good reasons, though kind of immature for why I stopped. At this point I'm happy that I didn't finish some of my comic books, because I realize now when I read them that they were horrible. In the sense that the story was too long, the jokes not funny, and the panels were innovative but often lost and muffled. The ideas were pretty good though, especially when I look back and realize the things that I accomplished, threw away and re-accomplished at such a young age.
And I still have allot of time to go before I can stop being "young".
so I have decided in this last week to alternate days drawing and guitar so that my separate and crazy endeavors don't consume me or stress me out. A good whole day of break should help me out in keeping a level head.
The only thing is that I'm re-re-re-re-re etc... writing the main story of the comic book that I've been developing since I was nine or ten. And this is basically because in reading my old stories I realize that even though the universe was cool, the characters were fresh and the concepts are still everything that I dream of seeing in media today, there is still very little emotion. The story was too much about armies, parent-less heroes, and stopping apocalypses. In some ways the biggest mistake was watching the lord of the rings so many times during my early teen years.
Right now I'm trying to find a simple passionate story in the characters from the original stories. Something where maybe only two or three characters feelings or lives are at stake instead of the whole saving the world shtick.
I'll get back to this in a bit, but I figure that on vrax's I should post my incomplete and wandering thoughts, just so that they're out there.
Recently I've been realizing how much of a loss stopping my comic book art was. At the time I felt really disillusioned and I seriously needed to get out of my depression that kind of painted most of my comic book art. But at the same time those comix had some really cool ideas and I could have become a better artist. Instead I just replaced my row of sharpened pencils for my guitar.
I used to want to write and draw comic books. every day, with every fiber of my body. I think I had good reasons, though kind of immature for why I stopped. At this point I'm happy that I didn't finish some of my comic books, because I realize now when I read them that they were horrible. In the sense that the story was too long, the jokes not funny, and the panels were innovative but often lost and muffled. The ideas were pretty good though, especially when I look back and realize the things that I accomplished, threw away and re-accomplished at such a young age.
And I still have allot of time to go before I can stop being "young".
so I have decided in this last week to alternate days drawing and guitar so that my separate and crazy endeavors don't consume me or stress me out. A good whole day of break should help me out in keeping a level head.
The only thing is that I'm re-re-re-re-re etc... writing the main story of the comic book that I've been developing since I was nine or ten. And this is basically because in reading my old stories I realize that even though the universe was cool, the characters were fresh and the concepts are still everything that I dream of seeing in media today, there is still very little emotion. The story was too much about armies, parent-less heroes, and stopping apocalypses. In some ways the biggest mistake was watching the lord of the rings so many times during my early teen years.
Right now I'm trying to find a simple passionate story in the characters from the original stories. Something where maybe only two or three characters feelings or lives are at stake instead of the whole saving the world shtick.
I'll get back to this in a bit, but I figure that on vrax's I should post my incomplete and wandering thoughts, just so that they're out there.