should i?
i really feel i need to write down my feelings/thoughts. it helped me vent before. it just sucks cuz i can never find alone time, besides on the computer late at night. but by that time, my mind is so cluttered, i cant think really, ya know. not clearly at least.
going through this last week of lots of ups and downs, its taking its toll, and ima burst soon. i dont do well with cutting off. and its more than i thought. is it really for the better?
if i can only eat something, take a pill to make my prayers that much stronger to make them happen.
even under it all, below the happiness above, i still find myself calm...side by side with my problems and trials. all these rules, dues, bills, warrants, empty pockets and wallets, ignorance, false friendships and hate is pushing me farther down. and im scared in the end, i wont just have a "thought change", but a whole new cory. i dont want that.
going through this last week of lots of ups and downs, its taking its toll, and ima burst soon. i dont do well with cutting off. and its more than i thought. is it really for the better?
if i can only eat something, take a pill to make my prayers that much stronger to make them happen.
even under it all, below the happiness above, i still find myself calm...side by side with my problems and trials. all these rules, dues, bills, warrants, empty pockets and wallets, ignorance, false friendships and hate is pushing me farther down. and im scared in the end, i wont just have a "thought change", but a whole new cory. i dont want that.