a week ago right now
so its been a week. im not over it. i try to keep telling myself its just my usual depression. its not bover a girl n shit. it is over a girl. i want to die right now. someone fuckin kill me. i dont have the balls to do it myself.
i went to class today. teacher gave us the project. i decided to work with these two kids, because they already have shit written. i noticed as i listened to them that shit i normally find funny, wasn't making me laugh in the slightest.
i hope that female writer doesn't figure out im depressive. its always nice to make new friends with the same interests as yourself. it would suck to fuck that up just cuz im a depressive dickhead dumbass. i actually have no friends nearby that like hiphop so much... maybe its cuz shes german. anyway, she a refreshing change from the norm. im gonna do shrooms this weekend. dunno if thats a bad thing or not, really. i love them, on the real, but....you know. we'll see how it turns out.
gainesville trip fell through. thats just like evrything else in life that i want. fuck.
a girl outside cvs was arguing with her boyfriend the other day. i told her that no matter how much she cares, no matter how much she tries, he will leave her, and wont be able to give her one real reason. i told her it wpuld be the same for the rest of her life, with everything she cares about. i felt bad. i thought she was gonna cry. i wish someone told me that earlier though. so, looking back, i dont really feel so bad about. she was gonna find out sooner or later.
i just realized, i dont make people smile. gotta work on that.
i went to class today. teacher gave us the project. i decided to work with these two kids, because they already have shit written. i noticed as i listened to them that shit i normally find funny, wasn't making me laugh in the slightest.
i hope that female writer doesn't figure out im depressive. its always nice to make new friends with the same interests as yourself. it would suck to fuck that up just cuz im a depressive dickhead dumbass. i actually have no friends nearby that like hiphop so much... maybe its cuz shes german. anyway, she a refreshing change from the norm. im gonna do shrooms this weekend. dunno if thats a bad thing or not, really. i love them, on the real, but....you know. we'll see how it turns out.
gainesville trip fell through. thats just like evrything else in life that i want. fuck.
a girl outside cvs was arguing with her boyfriend the other day. i told her that no matter how much she cares, no matter how much she tries, he will leave her, and wont be able to give her one real reason. i told her it wpuld be the same for the rest of her life, with everything she cares about. i felt bad. i thought she was gonna cry. i wish someone told me that earlier though. so, looking back, i dont really feel so bad about. she was gonna find out sooner or later.
i just realized, i dont make people smile. gotta work on that.