Think Think Think
Well I've done a lot of thinking today (and this whole journal may make it seem like im odsessed with brandi, well i am so get over it) about Brandi's "Subject at hand" and a lot of other stuff and I hate it when i get like this, cuz it makes me seem like im depressed.... But ya brandi we need to talk, i sent an email so u may know what i meen.... but I just feel so bad for that gurl she deserves to be living in much better conditions than what shes living in now, thats why I can't wait till the day i make it all better 4 her. But the main thing that I've been thinking about today was her saying "I'll call you later, that is if I haven't hung myself by then." And I truly know that she was kidding but it scared me and made me realize that the place shes living in is pure hell for her. And I just wish I could make it better. I mean sure she probably has her good days, but there really rare. Not once in the past few weeks have I heard her talk about anything good that has happened at that house. Between all the yelling and fighting, and all the chores shes gotta do, and all of her homework that she gets i don't know how that girl does it. But I gotta admitt that she truly is a strong girl. She can put up with a lot of shit, and thats another thing that scares me... I don't know how much more she can put up with. There's bound to be a breaking point and I dont want her to end up doing something stupid when that time comes. But she knows that she can come to me at anytime to talk when she needs to, and thats all i can do fer her right now is be here for her. But ims go for now... thanx for listening