its all that i wanted
how can i......i dont think i do it well at all....something kinda just hit me when tim was taking me home, i dont like excepting help....i dont know why, maybe because its a sign of weakness to some? or too me....and i just dont want to be weak anymore...i would just like know what the hell is going on from me.....and i also realized that i have a tendency to contradict myself (shut up about the spelling! i know ) its probally because i want the best for my friends and ppl around me, i dont really care what happens to me, id give my life for anyone of my friends and i have , just look at the person i've known the longest, she got me sent to the damn socail worker....i just want her and for anyone of my friends to be happy
i dont know if im gona go threw with it, i dont know what else to turn too, i mean i have a hard enough time letting go, and just relaxing, hense the no sleep part, sleep = just enough to make its threw the day
but i need to let go, just for a little while and for any price right now, cause if i dont , i dont know how bad ill get or if ill can last any longer, it feels like the wieght of the world is on my shoulders and is slowly crushing me...... i dont know, i dont mean to be two faced like that , i just want the best for everyone else, i really never considered what i do to myself, maybe its just because i dont care
i dont know .....well im tryed so im going to bed
good night all
blessed be
i dont know if im gona go threw with it, i dont know what else to turn too, i mean i have a hard enough time letting go, and just relaxing, hense the no sleep part, sleep = just enough to make its threw the day
but i need to let go, just for a little while and for any price right now, cause if i dont , i dont know how bad ill get or if ill can last any longer, it feels like the wieght of the world is on my shoulders and is slowly crushing me...... i dont know, i dont mean to be two faced like that , i just want the best for everyone else, i really never considered what i do to myself, maybe its just because i dont care
i dont know .....well im tryed so im going to bed
good night all
blessed be