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i hate this....i dont know what to say or to do....i've forgotten how to be happy....or to really laugh.....i've forgotten how to be me
people have seen me in a light that i never wanted anyone to see...and i dont know if it was good.....if they saw me in a better light or a worse one...
i've been thrown out of my safetly blanket....and i dont like it at all....i know longer have the knowledge of what people think of me...and it scares me.....it scares me more than anything..i've faced death head on and im still here.....i dont know if they like me or hate me....and i cant stand it....i cant stand the fact that i dont know who my true friends are or if i have any at all....
i want to be able to curl up in my covers at night knowing everything will be alright..... the people i care about are safe and okay...that some day they will be happy......is that to much to ask?...is that to much of a wish?......
people have seen me in a light that i never wanted anyone to see...and i dont know if it was good.....if they saw me in a better light or a worse one...
i've been thrown out of my safetly blanket....and i dont like it at all....i know longer have the knowledge of what people think of me...and it scares me.....it scares me more than anything..i've faced death head on and im still here.....i dont know if they like me or hate me....and i cant stand it....i cant stand the fact that i dont know who my true friends are or if i have any at all....
i want to be able to curl up in my covers at night knowing everything will be alright..... the people i care about are safe and okay...that some day they will be happy......is that to much to ask?...is that to much of a wish?......