My Shits Boring
Yup im bored as hell thats why I'm even writing in this maw. haha. oh well? i guess it passes the time. Im kinda pissed cause I broke up w/ Christian and all a while back well like a month ago you know...and i already have another bf haha but yea the point is that he called me in the morning. well he's been calling me hounding me that he wants to get back together that this time he's going to change and that everything is going to be diffrent. And you know I almost fell for it but I'm not that stupid and I wouldn't put what I have with my new bf Edson in jepordey like that just for the same ol shit you know? But right anyway the part that pisses me off is that he said to call at 10:00 pm tonight and I did...and go figure. he didn't pick up? but it really doesn't matter I don't know why I play along with that kid anyway. But here i was being nice so we could "talk" or whatever and he blows me off. Just makes me MORE certain that he is never going to change and he hadn't planned on it. Which is why im happy w/ my new bf he's a really great guy and he treats me really well. The problem with mexican guys though is that like, they fall in love real quick. and sometimes that nice cause who doesn't like to hear that your loved but still. FOr me right now its scary as hell cause Chrisitan messed up my whole loving radar and I perrty much have no want or need to love someone right now. Oh well and yup you know since I got out of HS I wanted to do psychology. Be a psych major and just this year well i decided to be a Nutritionist and it seems like a real good idea. I mean, so far so good I jsut have to apply to the school of Health and Sciences and all that. I'm just nervous that I can't do it you know I dunno why I shouldn't think like that I know but it still gives me butterflies in my stomach. Oh well and after i get my bs in Nutrtion i get to do a 12 mnth intership and then i can take the test to take my certification and become a ...ta da...Registered Dietician which sounds perfect. Man i can't wait to get out of college and actually start working and doing stuff w/ my life. My brother loves school i mean he loves the whole not being in the real world of it all. You know? just study and study and take tests and write papers and you don't have to worry about morgages and your credit report..balancing the checkbook... I don't like those things either but i PREFER them than just sitting around in a class hopeing that it will pay off in the furture. Thats me, according to my seminar teacher being in lectures is not my "learning style". OH well..I just want things to move forward. What i really want right now is to forget all about Chris but its hard cause everywhere I look there is something there to remind me of him. I can feel Nelly's pain you know you make someone your life expecting them to be with you for always and then all of a sudden (derepente) there gone and you have to move on with your life leaving all those things behind. It suuuxsss. I really thought that me and Chris would be together forever but I could only take so much of his bullshit and I got tired of being the one loving and crying and making sacerfices. I do care about Edson I do and he really wants to help me forget my ex ..we'll see what happens. Like everyone says im still young and I guess that is of some help..I guess?