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I'm Back in Raleigh.
I drove back down with Kerry and her Dad. It was fun i finished my book! another one, not me talk pretty one day. but GO ask Alice. Its so good. And i feel so accomplished! its such a good feeling! my parents wanted me to read 3 books this summer, I down 2 to go! well after finishing it me and kerry were talking about it because she has read it already and we now both wanna start a diary. One that both of us write are own shit and then when we are done, we switch off and read each others. this way all that little shit in our day or week and be Written down without having to talk about all of the feelings. we figure we can learn alot about each other this way. Now i'm ready to write down all of my thoughts and feelings! ha ha its quite lame, but i really cant wait! This DIary is going to be my life after I leave NC. Or maybe befor. Actually i want it here. because i know there are gonna be things I will wanna comment on.
Dear MOM and DAD,
I love you so, so much! please understand that I'm a teenager and have finished my first year of high school. I got interposed to new things. this is bound to happen. it happend to Olav and Katrina. altho i dont think you know about katrina or you do and I did'nt know because i was too young and you dont care anymore because she came out to be a WONDERFUL student and this did'nt effect her as much as my troublesome brother, olav. I love olav. But he is also not the person that has led me down this path. I have done alot of shit you dont know about and I would never want you to know, because i cant really explain all the feelings behind it so i just seem stupid! there is alot about teenagers now that you as a kid did'nt have to deal with. but times have changed and things for us are harder! I'm not a bad kid. I have tried a few things that were exposed to me and that dose'nt make me a drugy. I want so much for you to let this one time go. I wont stop but at least I will never do it around my house again. Because i want to enjoy it now while i'm young and care-free but I never again want you to see me under those circumstances and i dont want you to worry for me. I'll stop when i feel it right to, please let me do it now. and freely appose to rebelling against you. because thats just lame. i'm not a rebel. ha ha ha. THank you so much for letting me go down to raleigh and have a summer, and to huston. and not yelling at me in front of kerry.
I'm Scared of my future.... I want to be happy and have friends. things will go right next year!
ANd YOU MR. STUD FACE> DONt comment on my journal. YOUr not cool.Untill you say who you are and dress like a unicorn's bitch. then you can commment all you want, but not untill then, "KABICH" !
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