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I hate it when my friends tell me that they think they can't do any better and they're afraid of rejection... Like I told her, rejection is a part of life. You can't control other people's feelings but why make yourself suffer? Let me inform you of an incident that occured when I was in my last relationship.
I was casually driving around, I'm sure I had a destination but I don't remember the minor details. We must've been talking about how ****** treats ***** like shit and my boyfriend at the time proceeded to say, "No offense Chrissy I love you and all, but ***** is like really pretty." And ***** is afraid of rejection? How ridiculous? My boyfriend complimented her, someone I was with/seeing honestly thought she was prettier than me. That was kinda like a slap in the face... For once in my life I had found someone who liked me yet ***** was still ranked above me. Don't get me wrong, I love my friend ***** with all my heart, but it seriously pisses me off how much she doubts herself and how unpretty she thinks she is.
Some people don't understand what it feels like to always be second best when you're with someone else, but sometimes I feel like that's my life story. I must sound so petty or like I'm trying to get people to feel bad for me... But that's not it at all... I guess I just want to feel as special/important/admired/envied as some of my friends are. Is that wrong to feel?
I guess I'm sick of living in someone's shadow... Why don't people like me like they like her?...
I was casually driving around, I'm sure I had a destination but I don't remember the minor details. We must've been talking about how ****** treats ***** like shit and my boyfriend at the time proceeded to say, "No offense Chrissy I love you and all, but ***** is like really pretty." And ***** is afraid of rejection? How ridiculous? My boyfriend complimented her, someone I was with/seeing honestly thought she was prettier than me. That was kinda like a slap in the face... For once in my life I had found someone who liked me yet ***** was still ranked above me. Don't get me wrong, I love my friend ***** with all my heart, but it seriously pisses me off how much she doubts herself and how unpretty she thinks she is.
Some people don't understand what it feels like to always be second best when you're with someone else, but sometimes I feel like that's my life story. I must sound so petty or like I'm trying to get people to feel bad for me... But that's not it at all... I guess I just want to feel as special/important/admired/envied as some of my friends are. Is that wrong to feel?
I guess I'm sick of living in someone's shadow... Why don't people like me like they like her?...