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i am SO sick of being alone... but im not good enough...ever... they always want my friends... They always want something else never me... thats how it always goes... youd figure id be used to it by now... but im not... havent had a boyfriend in 2 and a half years.. im every guys "little sister"... or "best friend"... never the "girlfriend"... i keep getting told "You'll have your day"..."whitney, you're beautiful!"... but i dont guess that means a thing... all these people post things about wanting someone that will "love you for you..be there for you... yadda yyadda yadda about the perfect girl or boy" or about how they are the one in the background which is what i feel like.. im the one in the background.. great friend, just not what they think is "girlfriend material"... heck im not even best friend material anymore.. if i were i wouldnt have lost mine... do yourself a favor and dont EVER tell a person of the opposite sex that they are perfect and beautiful and someone youd do anything for and that you love if you wouldnt even give them a chance yourself.. EVEN if you really do think it..just seems hypocritical... and why would you tell someone that if you had no desire to pursue something with them... maybe im just being stupid.. but honestly... im sick of being alone and not being good enough but if im not good enough now, how i am, i will never be good enough because im whitney and you can take me or leave me... tomorrow i start the first day of the rest of my life.... starting the year that just kicks my ass out to the real world all though ive already been there in most sences.. im completley capable of making it... and i will...