at 24 :)
Random things about Jme at 24
(Realization, dreams, funny things, useful and partly non-sense things)
***Almost a year ago I wrote random stuffs about me…again, here’s the list but now with some corrections and “improvement” (that is…if I have improved on some aspects of my life, darn!)
o My family is the most important part of my life - TRUE!!!
o I am sooo blessed to have loyal and great friends around me - friends who appreciate my corny jokes and my kikay side (especially the lowlas)
o The best definition of my friends would be: SIMPLE PEOPLE, TRUE FRIENDS - let me add : STILL YOUNG (at heart) AT 23 - 25 (ryt?) J
o I enjoy the independence I have right now - but sometimes I badly want to go back to the time when I still live with my family
o Living alone for 7 years now fulfills me (I’ve got the chance to do things on my own) - but can I not do my laundry anymore? L
o On the contrary…it makes me long for my family so much - soooo much!!!
o A person’s upbringing determines the kind of life one will lead when he / she grows up - I (personally) still believe in this “principle”
o Everything happens at the right time - yeah, right!
o I finally was able to let go of the person I have loved for the past 11 years of my life (yep, it’s that long) - I have to sooo contradict with this part…obviously my “moving on” was just short-lived…we got back and working things out (wink*wink*)
o It took me a lot of years to do that - and seconds to realized that I still love him [now, im getting mushy J ]
o It was hard but once I accepted the fact that that’s the last thing I have to do, I realized I better have to move on and start things anew - but after realizing that the bitterness’ gone, I communicated with him again and the rest is history
o It’s ok to be bitter, despise that person all you want but if the bitterness is still there, moving on is impossible - or maybe, the reason why I wasn’t able to totally moved on was “the connection”
o I still ask myself why things didn’t work the way we both intended and planned it to be…unfortunately I haven’t provided myself with a rational and safe answer ‘til now - now I KNOW why
o I am not fulfilled yet…I still have a lot of things to do and accomplish - korek malaking check!!!
o In life, we cannot have it all - another check!
o Sometimes no matter how hard you try to achieve something it would still not be yours at the end - perhaps it isn’t really for me L
o Know your battles and be determined to fight - and take calculated risks(***)
o But if everything still fails after trying hard, then it’s about time to give up - but don’t resent
o Bottom line is…just try - there’s really no harm in trying
o The fact that says life is fair is yet to be confirmed - im kinda taking it back J
o The first step towards the realization of a dream is taking the RISK - and enough courage to face the possibility that it MAY not come true
o Life’s full of uncertainties…so take the risk! - go!go!go
o That is…calculated risk - see ***
o No pain, no gain - now that’s unfair!!!
o Don’t be too trusting - I was soooo bitter when I wrote this J
o You cannot be too sure, there would be unfortunate times that the person you trusted (and love for that matter) the most would lie and betray you - yeah, I was bitter
o This is frustrating - I still agree
o Cry all you want then move on - I just cried…I haven’t totally moved on (contrary to my belief)
o Moving on would definitely take time - in short…good luck!
o But moving on would be easy once you accept the fact that it’s never gonna work out - or so I thought
o Forget the person but don’t forget the memories and the lessons the go with that person - nyikes…corny!!!
o This is unavoidable…bitches and jerks are everywhere - yeah…they’re everywhere
o Sad to say…some men might come in different looks, forms and disguise but one thing that’s actually common in them is that at one point of their lives, they’ll be jerks showing their true colors - they propagate (I believe)
o And these jerks )Lcertainly don’t know what they’re missing (poor them) - and we’re girl goddesses!!!
o A failed relationship doesn’t mean both parties involved are failures…it’s just a matter of wrong timing - that’s it! Wrong timing L
o Destiny is the sum of a person’s personal choices and forces of nature - this still holds true
o It’s not bad to make a mistake just don’t keep on doing the same mistakes again - or it’s gonna be a real pain
o When faced with problems we tend to be in denial that there exists such, this is normal…but after the denial period we have to accept and do something to solve it - we cant be just trapped in that situation forever
o It’s kinda impossible that ex-lovers would be able to save the ideal friendship they had before (oh well, this is subjective) - Im sorry to say this…was just too bitter, now he’s my closest guy friend again
o To save a dying relationship, both parties should sit down and compromise - whaaat???!!!
o Love and trust are two different things (let me repeat…different) - yep…true!
o For me the latter matters more - yep…true!
o I don’t care if you don’t love me, just trust me and I’d be ok - yep…true!
o Girl friends (and Stitch) keep me sane - and TBoy!!!
o Nowadays Friday nights make me sad ‘coz I no longer spend nights having coffee and dinner with them unlike before - it’s getting normal again and im happy again, hurray for that!
o But without seeing much, I know for sure that we’re still there for each other (thanks to yahoogroups, ym and text)
o Given the chance to bring back some old days, I’d definitely choose to enjoy the experiences I had during the last two years of my college life again - true!
o I am even blessed because I am still bonded with my elementary and high school friends to these days - and some of them are married already and have kids (now that’s being advanced)
o With that, friendship is not just a matter of constantly being together, if you have an ideal friendship to start with, it will surpass everything
o (As much as possible) I am veering away from my “Ms. Congeniality” complex - im improving…in fairness J
o ‘Coz being too friendly sometimes just screw things up - korek!!!
o I am dying to have a stronger personality, I would want to be somebody who could easily speak up without minding other people’s feelings too much - im kinda mastering that art J
o I am every inch a Piscean - yep, emotional and all J
o I love to crack corny but humorous jokes (ask my friends…I’m the dean!) - ryt, lowlas?
o I love taking care of people especially those who are close to me and that includes feeding them - coz im a furstarated doctor? (nonsense)
o I easily trust a person but once that trust has been broken, I find it hard to give my trust again - coz trust is something I value a lot
o I am occasionally insecure - even “more” true this year
o My favorite role in life is my role as a friend - conceited ko!!!
o Ask my friends why (am I too conceited?) - cant believe I posted this last year (kadirs!!!)
o I am bound to prove something (at least as much as possible) - im getting there
o My grandpa (when I was in high school) presumed that I’ll get married at a young age - im 24 and still unmarried and at the rate that this country is going (more and more younger women are marrying now) says that ive proven myself already
o Can’t blame him, I was kinda maarte during my younger days - myt be unbelievable but true!
o And there was a time I’ve been I’ve been a brat - but that was before
o But wherever he is right now, I want him to be proud of me - I hope he is
o I was able to finish school and I guess if ever I’ll marry now, it won’t matter anymore since I’m of legal age already - but I still cant…I still haven’t saved any
o But hey, how can I get married when I don’t even have a boyfriend? - now ive got a boyfriend but let me reiterate…I STILL haven’t saved any…grrr!!!
o I am not bitter, actually I am perfectly ok - Im “perfectly” ok now that he’s back
o I guess it’s not yet the right time for me to meet him - met him already…I was just looking too far before that I didn’t realize it’s him all these time
o I just hope whoever he might be, he’ll be worth the wait (well, he better must be) - yep, he is
o What am I looking for a guy now? - security
o I want somebody who’s responsible and will provide me company when I need him - true!
o Of course, honesty should be in his system...all the time!!! - korek!
o Patience really is a virtue - sooo true
o My favorite parts of my body are: my teeth, eyes and ears respectively - im vain???!!!
o If I could change some part of it, I’d definitely would want to change the “bilbil” and other parts that are below it (I actually don’t want my butt - it’s too big for my size) - I badly need it…
o Splurge and pamper yourself once a month (actually it depends upon the need to) - this splurging thing is the main reason why I cant save…hehehe
o Buy whatever you want, eat foods you’ve been craving for, have a new hairstyle - these will if not totally eradicate your stress but will surely lessen it - it’s a stress-buster
o Have a personal journal - this will be your “imaginary” friend - but im too tired to write (as usual)
More things and facts to come…there will be parts 2 and 3 and even more (of course this depends on my availability and schedule). - BUT IM TOO TIRED TO WRITE (AS USUAL)