I've been avoiding everyone lately, spending my time either working, studying, or dancing. I haven't had a drink in a little while, not since the episode outside of Ebisu-sensei's bar where I ended up getting ditched by my so called friends for not wanting to test my ID in the math teachers bar. Now that I'm able to close the bakery though, I am getting a better paycheck and I've even started to actually confront what happened with Shino-kun as opposed to just pretending him up and leaving never happened.
I don't think I'm really to be sociable again. I kind of took the wrong path in getting over being hurt, and now I have a lot to make up for. I'm starting to doubt that I ever really had any friends, but I'm probably just being maudlin. I've been delivering cookie baskets again, trying to apologize in my own special way. I am certain that Naruto and Sasuke are best avoided for now though...
I feel like I just need to get used to the fact that I am not cut out for love and relationships...