I'm doing what I can

[by_your_side]

Looking through my recent entries is depressing. I never had enough time to write about the positive things. The bad times have outnumbered the good this year but that doesn't mean there weren't any laughs or random nights of fun. It would have been a nice reminder to read through a journal entry that had nothing to do with a monumental loss, funerals, financial stress, pneumonia, state troopers, etc. Things could be worse things could be worse things could be worse. I hope and I pray that I hold onto that realization before something else happens to prove it. I don't know if there is a point to this entry. I think I've kept this journal 4 years too long and it's time to let go. I need to let go of a lot of things.

My faith in God, religion, purpose and things of that nature, are always in question. More now than ever. I love how I am currently enrolled in Theology of the Church and Human Experience with Sister JoAnne Jones while I'm evaluating these beliefs.