Can't this thing go any faster?
i should really redecorate this page. its so old. or maibe i should keep it this way. i really dont know. but i'm tired.
of almost everything.
so people change right? i feel like i lost something. like, my edge. sounds funny. pre-midlife crisis. but seriously. i look around and the hardcore are still hardcore and i've become something different, which is what i wanted in the first place. now, wheres the attention? wheres the recognition--the dirty looks--the compliments on my hair? shit, i mean, what am i looking for? i'm torn from trendy fads and setting an example. so it seems. or maibe this is all in my head. i've become so critical and cynical about fashion, trends. without calling myself a hypocrite, i feel like i've contradicted everything i've ever said before. why dont people hate me yet?
my academics. i was supposed to be focused this year. i'm here writing a journal entry and i have so many things i could be doing. self improvement, i think not, sir!
when i drive, will i be more responsible or will i become more reckless.
and i'm worried about something still.
testing.
psat.phys, alg2trig, rhet and comp, std
i'm halfway scared. the other half, i dunno. whatever it is i havent dont anything about it.
and everyone will tell me, oh taing you can do it, yay taing, come on, you are capable you are everything this that bing bang pow.
no.
i dont know.
apply yourself.
apply now.
why do you have to be so
so
ugh!
of almost everything.
so people change right? i feel like i lost something. like, my edge. sounds funny. pre-midlife crisis. but seriously. i look around and the hardcore are still hardcore and i've become something different, which is what i wanted in the first place. now, wheres the attention? wheres the recognition--the dirty looks--the compliments on my hair? shit, i mean, what am i looking for? i'm torn from trendy fads and setting an example. so it seems. or maibe this is all in my head. i've become so critical and cynical about fashion, trends. without calling myself a hypocrite, i feel like i've contradicted everything i've ever said before. why dont people hate me yet?
my academics. i was supposed to be focused this year. i'm here writing a journal entry and i have so many things i could be doing. self improvement, i think not, sir!
when i drive, will i be more responsible or will i become more reckless.
and i'm worried about something still.
testing.
psat.phys, alg2trig, rhet and comp, std
i'm halfway scared. the other half, i dunno. whatever it is i havent dont anything about it.
and everyone will tell me, oh taing you can do it, yay taing, come on, you are capable you are everything this that bing bang pow.
no.
i dont know.
apply yourself.
apply now.
why do you have to be so
so
ugh!