Wake up kids it's a whole new year
And i just wrote 3 papers. Working on a forth and soon fifth.
I was sick as hell all vacation long and didn't become well until just this past friday.
Nothing too new, I'm not letting things get to me, relying heavily on the whole Karma thing. But don't brand me as crazy just yet, it seems adequate in the fashion that it keeps making itself blatantly clear and completely possible. Danielle knows.
Also lately i've been thinking a lot, and that maybe i want too much, or that maybe i've just not gotten anything yet, anything i've not so much expected but though came with the territory, of being young that is. I find my self wishing for long nights, good times, but i guess thats just too out-landish for my bubble of interrelated kids. I think i always feel everyone else belongs to everyone else's own groups and in that thought i lose sight of that fact that i have my own group, just not a sub divide thats all. I think that i'm yet to find someone my equal counter part, male or female. I'm trying not to be bitter about it but i can't help but thing i'm for some reason losing time or some shit. I also always feared turning out,old and finding that i've past my 'prime'. But at the same time, and equally as frightening, i think is being in your 'prime', realizing it and having it not be all you'd expect, in an attempt to some how almost salvage it and make it transcend the possibilities of actualization and preserve, lose it anyway.
i don't think anyone should have said that out loud, but i did. And not in a blank way of not appreciating who or what i have, but in a fashion of longing and further seeking what i'd like and know i'm hopefully yet to find.
oh yes, and don't ever try to fool yourself in thinking that you can nudge yourself into someone else's world. Everything is set and no matter how beautifully allure it may be all your ever going to get is a smile and a shrug off.
happy fucking 2k5!
I was sick as hell all vacation long and didn't become well until just this past friday.
Nothing too new, I'm not letting things get to me, relying heavily on the whole Karma thing. But don't brand me as crazy just yet, it seems adequate in the fashion that it keeps making itself blatantly clear and completely possible. Danielle knows.
Also lately i've been thinking a lot, and that maybe i want too much, or that maybe i've just not gotten anything yet, anything i've not so much expected but though came with the territory, of being young that is. I find my self wishing for long nights, good times, but i guess thats just too out-landish for my bubble of interrelated kids. I think i always feel everyone else belongs to everyone else's own groups and in that thought i lose sight of that fact that i have my own group, just not a sub divide thats all. I think that i'm yet to find someone my equal counter part, male or female. I'm trying not to be bitter about it but i can't help but thing i'm for some reason losing time or some shit. I also always feared turning out,old and finding that i've past my 'prime'. But at the same time, and equally as frightening, i think is being in your 'prime', realizing it and having it not be all you'd expect, in an attempt to some how almost salvage it and make it transcend the possibilities of actualization and preserve, lose it anyway.
i don't think anyone should have said that out loud, but i did. And not in a blank way of not appreciating who or what i have, but in a fashion of longing and further seeking what i'd like and know i'm hopefully yet to find.
oh yes, and don't ever try to fool yourself in thinking that you can nudge yourself into someone else's world. Everything is set and no matter how beautifully allure it may be all your ever going to get is a smile and a shrug off.
happy fucking 2k5!