5 in the morning, and I still can't concentrate on my English
So I'm at work, and as most of us know, I've been fairly well distracted the past few days. Well i like to think that I hopefully got it all worked out between talking to Mike and Rachael. But unfortunately, no, it's not worked out. It could just be the nature of the question in the book, or something else, but her face just keeps drifting across my vision. I mean, admittedly, the question deals with the way females affect males and love and all that nonsense, but still, I was never in love with her. Hell, I was and am still more in love with Genny than I ever was with her. Hell, more in love with Leah (ok, maybe not Leah) or maybe Tristan. Maybe it has to do with how recently the situation happened, I don't know. All I know is that I hurt, and it stings badly. I know it really isn't anyone's fault, but it still gets to me. Blah!!! I just wish for once things would work out for the best in my love life, and people would actually have real feelings for me instead of these damn crushes. This is my deep pitiful cry from the depths of my soul, what the hell is wrong with me in that nobody can seem to develop actual feelings for me. And Jenn, I don't need a speech about how depressed I seem becaus I know, this is a depressing entry, it was meant to be, because at this moment, I am very very bummed out. I need a hug and a punching bag all at the same time. Alcohol would only compound the issue, so that's the last thing I need. Damn it all to hell in a handbasket. I hope you two, if you get together will be happy.
Peace.
Peace.