Embracing your opportunities.
Life is great right now. It's better than great. There's no real reason why, just little things all coming together.
For one, I'm finally getting over Adam. I didn't even get butterflies when he IMed me. I really just didn't care. AND Ben called me Thursday night. It came at the perfect time. He has this theory about love and religion. Honestly, I've been feeling so lost lately that it was exactly what I needed to hear. My road trip last weekend also came at the perfect time. I was able to really embrace what Ben was saying. I allowed myself to do things that I wouldn't have done otherwise.
I bought some CDs and a purple pair of shades that I normally wouldn't have bought. When Travis was taking a nap I went for a walk instead of watching TV or sleeping.
And then there's Johnny. He's a lifeguard at my work. He has blond hair that goes down to the middle to his face. He has pale crystal blue eyes...and his body is always warm. He's one of the sweetest men I've ever met. Yesterday we spent the day together. From 11:30am to 1 something in the morning. It was amazing. We spent most of the time on my deck.
At one point I was laying down and he was sitting crossed-legged next to me. We were talking, and all of a sudden he stopped in the middle of his sentence. He just stared at me. I stared back and waited for him to speak but he didn't. Finally I just said, "What?" and he was like..."I'm sorry. You just have really really pretty eyes. I kinda wanted to wait until you were mad at me to say it, but I just had to tell you." ....I was speechless.
And then later on we were standing on my deck. He was holding me and we were talking, and then all of a sudden he twisted and dipped me back and kissed me. I about lost my mind.
He's just so so sweet. I can't get enough of him! I hope this works out well. I'm still trying to decide if I want a real relationship or not.
For one, I'm finally getting over Adam. I didn't even get butterflies when he IMed me. I really just didn't care. AND Ben called me Thursday night. It came at the perfect time. He has this theory about love and religion. Honestly, I've been feeling so lost lately that it was exactly what I needed to hear. My road trip last weekend also came at the perfect time. I was able to really embrace what Ben was saying. I allowed myself to do things that I wouldn't have done otherwise.
I bought some CDs and a purple pair of shades that I normally wouldn't have bought. When Travis was taking a nap I went for a walk instead of watching TV or sleeping.
And then there's Johnny. He's a lifeguard at my work. He has blond hair that goes down to the middle to his face. He has pale crystal blue eyes...and his body is always warm. He's one of the sweetest men I've ever met. Yesterday we spent the day together. From 11:30am to 1 something in the morning. It was amazing. We spent most of the time on my deck.
At one point I was laying down and he was sitting crossed-legged next to me. We were talking, and all of a sudden he stopped in the middle of his sentence. He just stared at me. I stared back and waited for him to speak but he didn't. Finally I just said, "What?" and he was like..."I'm sorry. You just have really really pretty eyes. I kinda wanted to wait until you were mad at me to say it, but I just had to tell you." ....I was speechless.
And then later on we were standing on my deck. He was holding me and we were talking, and then all of a sudden he twisted and dipped me back and kissed me. I about lost my mind.
He's just so so sweet. I can't get enough of him! I hope this works out well. I'm still trying to decide if I want a real relationship or not.