Exciting week so far!
*sigh*...........exciting past couple days..............
Yeah...I'm back with Alex. I know, I KNOW! Last week was a living hell and sure it only made things worse, he just had to figure stuff out. Get his feelings straightened up. And I don't blame him at all. Cause I did the same thing this year *entries back in September 2004* And you only learn stuff from these things. But you know, when I got a second chance with Cress, I felt really lucky. And I know that Al just needed time. Cause you know, people my age don't get married. And yeah, they wanna see other people and just date around, and so I can't blame him. But you know, when someone makes you this happy, you don't want to let him go so fast. He couldn't get rid of me that easily But come on, when a guy says that he had a week from hell cause he made a mistake about another girl and would rather spend a day with you than like a lifetime *well, not really a lifetime. just middle school*with someone and not be as happy as he could be, that makes you feel pretty special. You feel important. Yeah, so what, I got screwed over the first time. But you know, that's life. And yeah, it can come back and bite me in the ass, but frankly, I'm living for the moment, not for the future. And everyone should want to make up their mistakes, even if it did something good for them. Because you only learn from it.
Well, I passed out at school Friday morning! HOW EXCITING! The ambulance came and everything and all the girls in my choir class were crying and all worried. When I was just fine, lol. I found that a little amusing. Lessee.....hm...
Alex and I talked all weekend. Just talked. Not like romantically, just talked about stuff. Just everything. Just being friends. And yeah, we want to be more than friends. Like I said, I'm living for the moment.
And I hope this pain in my lower right stomach goes away......cause if it doesn't, I have to go to the hospital. Alright, well my mom just told me I'm going to the hospital. I'm gonna save this entry and then edit it for tomorrow.
Not fun
Yours Truly,
Cait
*Tuesday*
THE HOSPITAL SUCKS ASS!!!!! LIKE FAT PORN STAR ASS!!!! I checked in at about 9:30 p.m. I had to get a CT scan to make sure I didn't have appendicitis, and so I had to drink this barium stuff. TASTED LIKE SHIT! I nearly puked everytime I swallowed it. and I had two cups of it. Sooooo nasty. And these weren't Dixie Cups, kids! They were like Medium cokes you by at McDonald's. Two of them filled to the brim with barium. I told my mom to shoot me. With all seriousness. Then they gave me some medicine so that my tummy didn't come flying out of my mouth....and it didn't help at all cause it only made me groggy and reallly reallllly sleepy. So it made it even harder to drink it and stay awake. I just wanted to go home soooo badly. So then after I drank it, I fell asleep for a while, then I went and got a scan, then I went back to my little room. And I fell asleep. And we didn't check out of the hospital til about 4:00 a.m. and didn't get home til about 4:30. So my mom didn't let me go to school because I was still drugged up and groggy. Woot........but I didn't want to miss any school.....and I really wanted to see Alex...
*sigh* So now it's about 2:00 pm and I woke up at 1:00 pm. And I really miss Alex....*tear* But there was a good part. There was a really REALLY attractive EMT student there taking my vitals. And he was REAL cute. And I was like.....damnit....I knew I should've worn my mascara.....But all I could think about was Alex strolling into the room with flowers and stuff and hugging me telling me it was almost over...
..A girl can dream, can't she?
*sigh* That was my exciting night. I hope yours wasn't as shitty as mine was (:
Yeah...I'm back with Alex. I know, I KNOW! Last week was a living hell and sure it only made things worse, he just had to figure stuff out. Get his feelings straightened up. And I don't blame him at all. Cause I did the same thing this year *entries back in September 2004* And you only learn stuff from these things. But you know, when I got a second chance with Cress, I felt really lucky. And I know that Al just needed time. Cause you know, people my age don't get married. And yeah, they wanna see other people and just date around, and so I can't blame him. But you know, when someone makes you this happy, you don't want to let him go so fast. He couldn't get rid of me that easily But come on, when a guy says that he had a week from hell cause he made a mistake about another girl and would rather spend a day with you than like a lifetime *well, not really a lifetime. just middle school*with someone and not be as happy as he could be, that makes you feel pretty special. You feel important. Yeah, so what, I got screwed over the first time. But you know, that's life. And yeah, it can come back and bite me in the ass, but frankly, I'm living for the moment, not for the future. And everyone should want to make up their mistakes, even if it did something good for them. Because you only learn from it.
Well, I passed out at school Friday morning! HOW EXCITING! The ambulance came and everything and all the girls in my choir class were crying and all worried. When I was just fine, lol. I found that a little amusing. Lessee.....hm...
Alex and I talked all weekend. Just talked. Not like romantically, just talked about stuff. Just everything. Just being friends. And yeah, we want to be more than friends. Like I said, I'm living for the moment.
And I hope this pain in my lower right stomach goes away......cause if it doesn't, I have to go to the hospital. Alright, well my mom just told me I'm going to the hospital. I'm gonna save this entry and then edit it for tomorrow.
Not fun
Yours Truly,
Cait
*Tuesday*
THE HOSPITAL SUCKS ASS!!!!! LIKE FAT PORN STAR ASS!!!! I checked in at about 9:30 p.m. I had to get a CT scan to make sure I didn't have appendicitis, and so I had to drink this barium stuff. TASTED LIKE SHIT! I nearly puked everytime I swallowed it. and I had two cups of it. Sooooo nasty. And these weren't Dixie Cups, kids! They were like Medium cokes you by at McDonald's. Two of them filled to the brim with barium. I told my mom to shoot me. With all seriousness. Then they gave me some medicine so that my tummy didn't come flying out of my mouth....and it didn't help at all cause it only made me groggy and reallly reallllly sleepy. So it made it even harder to drink it and stay awake. I just wanted to go home soooo badly. So then after I drank it, I fell asleep for a while, then I went and got a scan, then I went back to my little room. And I fell asleep. And we didn't check out of the hospital til about 4:00 a.m. and didn't get home til about 4:30. So my mom didn't let me go to school because I was still drugged up and groggy. Woot........but I didn't want to miss any school.....and I really wanted to see Alex...
*sigh* So now it's about 2:00 pm and I woke up at 1:00 pm. And I really miss Alex....*tear* But there was a good part. There was a really REALLY attractive EMT student there taking my vitals. And he was REAL cute. And I was like.....damnit....I knew I should've worn my mascara.....But all I could think about was Alex strolling into the room with flowers and stuff and hugging me telling me it was almost over...
..A girl can dream, can't she?
*sigh* That was my exciting night. I hope yours wasn't as shitty as mine was (: