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Every word that he says is a dagger in me. In my life, there's been no one like him anywhere, anywhere where he is. If he asked, I'd be his.
He was never mine to lose. Why regret what cannot be? These are words he'll never say. Not to me, not to me, not for me. He will never feel this way.
One more day all on my own. One more day with him not caring. What a life I might have known! But he never saw me there.
I love him, but everyday I'm learning, all my life I've only been pretending. Without me, his world would go on turning. A world that's full of happiness that I have never known! I love him, but only on my own.
Hands touch, eyes meet. Sudden silence, sudden heat. Hearts leap in a giddy whirl. He could be that boy, but I'm not that girl. Don't dream too far. Don't lose sight of who you are. Don't remember that rush of joy. He could be that boy. I'm not that girl.
Don't wish, don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart. I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl. I'm not that girl.
I gave you my music, made your song take wing. And now, how you've repaid me, denied me, and betrayed me.
Too bad the rest isn't true. I wish...
He was bound to love you, when he heard you sing...
Angel of music, you denied me! Turning from true beauty. Angel of music, do not shun me! Come to your strange angel.
Now some classics my mom used to have.
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far, now it looks as though they're here to stay. Oh, yesterday came suddenly. Suddenly, I'm not half the girl I used to be. There's a shadow hanging over me. Oh, I believe in yesterday. Why he had to go, I don't know, he wouldn't say. I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday. Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play. Now, I need a place to hide away, oh I believe in yesterday.
I know, I know.
"There is no grief that time cannot lessen or soften."
But time will take a while. When will the hurt go away? DOES true love exsist? Do guys even love? If so, I've yet to meet one.
Oh, I'm feeling sick.
Well, I better go pack anyhow.
Ugh, I REALLY feel bad, like nauseous.
Hopeless as my dream dies, as the time flies, love a lost illusion.
No beauty could move me, no goodness improve me. No power on earth, if he can't love me. No passion could reach me, no lesson could teach me.
No spirit could win me, no hope left within me. No pain could be deeper, no life could be cheaper. No point anymore if he can't love me. No hope he would do so, no dream to pursue, so, I look to myself, despise all the things I see. For I know that he cannot set me free. Let the world be done with me!
((Just as a note, Minami will not be at school tomorrow due to illness.))