It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel...
So as you guys could have figured out, today was the last day of high school. Like, ever! It's really exciting but really depressing. I remember walking up to Port Credit as a niner and thinking "before you know it, you'll be graduating!" I am so full of wisdom; I was right. I can't believe it's done already. I feel like I haven't done enough to have the time of my life. Perhaps because I spent more than half a year being emo because I had to move.
That's another thing: I spent 2 years with the people at PC and I love them to death. Then I moved. And I spent the next 2 years getting to know people at this school and now I love them to death too. And now we're leaving. It's too short. I want to spend more time with people.
I know I'm going to have a blast at Queen's and I'll make a ton of new friends, but I always hate saying goodbye to old friends. I don't want to lose touch with these people. I care about them too much now.
I'll probably keep in touch with Renata and Heather because we're all Facebook and MSN whores. But people like Jocelyn who don't spend a lot of time on the computer... how can I keep in touch? I think I might just have to accept the words my mom told me when we moved:
"You make some friends and you lose some friends, and that's just the way life is."
Harsh, but I guess true. I try too hard to keep every friend I make. You can tell - I hunted down my California buds on MySpace. We talk on AIM now. (Jantzen is a sweetheart, by the way)
I don't really know what Queen's will be like. How I'll manage my classes, how I'll get along with my room mates, what I'm going to do with my life. It a little unsettling, but I kind of like not knowing. So much has been planned for me. So many decisions made for me. I like running head first into something and not knowing what's going to happen.
I should feel a little more grown up now, but I think I feel more like a child than ever.
I have a noon exam tomorrow but I have to be up at 6 AM because the only way I can get to school is by school bus, which comes at regular times in the morning. I will have 4 hours to blow at school, so I will study then.
My exam runs until 2:00 (you're allowed to leave at 1:00 if you're done), and the bus leaves at 1:20. So if I take to the end of the exam period, I will miss the bus and be stranded. Oh yay.
In happier news, Jocelyn bought me birthday gifts!! She is the sweetest thing ever. I got a t-shirt that's striped red and white and it has this awesome jolly roger on it, but instead of a skull and crossbones, it's a cassette tape and crossbones. Music pirate!
I skipped all classes except human growth. I went to the mall with Jocelyn, Lisa, Greg, Jordan, Leslie and Rattan (who, by the way, nobody wanted there). We had lunch, and I bought ice cream. And we took photo booth pictures! And I ran into someone from PC at The Body Shop. I just realized how morbid the name "The Body Shop" sounds. Haha. Anyway, we had a good time. :]
I'm getting some stuff done for Queen's. Just figuring out what I'm going to do. There's an orientation in July that isn't mandatory but it's recommended. I want to go but it's overnight and we have to pay for the dorms each night. I think there's a one-day thing. It'll be better so that I don't miss work.
The Queen's Facebook group is amazingly helpful. I can get all of my questions answered before orientation because it's run by senior students at the university. And they're all so friendly and they help us out and make sure we know what we're doing.