still not dead
It seems removing gabapentin and the associated whack of sunshine yellow has yet to kill me. Woot!
Got myself to the buzzy!puter, opened up On the Inside, looked at content and ran away. Oh god, there's just too damn much of it and how can I keep track of the writes, the re-writes, and the slightly too random bits. I am scared of losing Stella Backstory 2.01 (huh? I should totally start version numbering and copy the great stuff about Stella's dad somewhere. There are times when I go a bit too much stream-of-consciousness and lose the action. I just can tell you heaps about what Stella associates with telescopes, desks, and her mother.
Stella's great relationship with her father makes me very happy. Not everyone in dS is haunted by the ghost of their father.
Actually, thinking about it, I think Stella would love the ghost of her father to come back. I have something written about how he does not come back and how that cuts Stella up inside. I need to make sure I keep that.
Come to it, where is Pa Vecchio in all this?
Come to that, uh, the whole Turnbull backstory is - uh - a story and not in a character-specific pov and right now everything about this project is scaring the hell out of me.
Otherwise, I am pretty lacking in whomph today (videlicet no writing) and demotivated. Also, getting worse scares me and getting better scares me and there's a lot of scare between here and there. Everything is scaring me. I need to get out.
Got myself to the buzzy!puter, opened up On the Inside, looked at content and ran away. Oh god, there's just too damn much of it and how can I keep track of the writes, the re-writes, and the slightly too random bits. I am scared of losing Stella Backstory 2.01 (huh? I should totally start version numbering and copy the great stuff about Stella's dad somewhere. There are times when I go a bit too much stream-of-consciousness and lose the action. I just can tell you heaps about what Stella associates with telescopes, desks, and her mother.
Stella's great relationship with her father makes me very happy. Not everyone in dS is haunted by the ghost of their father.
Actually, thinking about it, I think Stella would love the ghost of her father to come back. I have something written about how he does not come back and how that cuts Stella up inside. I need to make sure I keep that.
Come to it, where is Pa Vecchio in all this?
Come to that, uh, the whole Turnbull backstory is - uh - a story and not in a character-specific pov and right now everything about this project is scaring the hell out of me.
Otherwise, I am pretty lacking in whomph today (videlicet no writing) and demotivated. Also, getting worse scares me and getting better scares me and there's a lot of scare between here and there. Everything is scaring me. I need to get out.