bye bye sisterhood
i've got problems. problems that my stomach is pained to go through because of my personal difficulties over this summer. i've barely seen or spoken to anyone at LMMHS so far this summer. at first it was a releif to get out of school and not have to deal with the bullshit that was happening at the end of the year, but now i take it personally that i don't see anyone anymore. i'm a nice girl? i know i am, but for some reason i don't feel like that shines through to my classmates, which leaves me here, on my computer wasting away on livejournal. i feel like the only thing i get emotionally connected to are way too far fetched for me to actually make a connection with. it hurts a lot to think of it that way. of course, i get my summer obsessions that i can't get rid of. a couple of summers ago, it was miracle and the summer olympics, last summer it was the pool boy corey, so far this summer, it's been the 2006 world cup. yeah yeah yeah, the headbutt was bullshit, but i love zinedine regardless. the more i work, the less i mind doing shitty things. of course, you're not going to like the first job you do. it builds your thick skin for the future. i dont mind getting roughed around a little bit for $8.50 an hour plus tips. whenever i see people who are online that i haven't seen i can only imagine what they've been doing. smoking the pot, getting wasted. the normal things that high schoolers should be doing over the summer. but i find myself here alone, without a life, thinking about when i'm going to end up seeing superman.
for some reason i've gotten an infatuation with daytime tv. all the tv shows that were cancelled are now my calling. here's what i did today: i woke up around 11:30, watched gilmore girls and ate breakfast, then i watched saved by the bell, and went for a run while watching "when star wars ruled the world" or something like that. when i was done, i watched boy meets world (an everyday necessity) and then afterwards i watched what i like about you. that amanda bynes tv show that i've quickly gotten connected to. who knew i was such a sucker for tv shows with bad jokes and outrageous laugh tracks? anyway, afterwards i watched some trl, with owen wilson, kate hudson, AND beyonce. oh, and there were those brando brothers who were like driving some fat black girl in the audience crazy when she was crying. woohoo for looking like an ass on national television. afterwards i went to cranwell and swam 80 laps. i guess it was a spur of the moment thing. but i was looking for a good work out day today, just to feel exra good this evening. now that it's evening, i feel like bologna. no wonder i dont have any friends.
this has been way to long. but now i'm going to move on and talk about the world cup. of course, there was the let down with the united states exiting so early and so disgracefully. it was pretty disappointing if you ask me. but hey, england still had their chance, the team i was rooting for early on. but once they lost (fuck you christiano ronaldo), that was the most devastating end to the tournament. all of the players on the ground, working their ass off after 2 hours of football, only to lose it on penalty kicks. penalty kicks are such shit. it's the worst way to end the game, but hey, i guess it works for the drama. congrats to italy for winning the world cup. i was cheering for france to win because of zinedine zidane, but his play did screw them, and also their second best player was on the bench. so, that led to a win for italy, and the mystery of what was really said between materazzi and zidane. i believe that materazzi called him the son of a terrorist whore or something. nothing else seems practical enough for zidane to completely lose it like that. i also can't stop watching that u2 montage at the end of the world cup. it was so wonderful to see all of the best, worst, and hearbreaking moment of the tournament all thrown together with perfect music in only three minutes. those are the things that get me so happy/sad.
i wish my brothers would accept me to be more apart of their friends group. i know i'm probably the annoying little sister all of the time, but i feel like they have spoiled me over the years and now that geoff is out everynight partying, i wish i could be a part of that, because i am on the right level with all of his friends to be mature enough. only because i'm younger and what not is bullshit. i have the maturity of a 20 year old when i want to, and that's why i don't see my friends enough. it's because i don't laugh at the shitty jokes, or suck up to the popular people. i know that i am just so much better than the shit that happens in high school and that it's going to mean nothing in my future. i wish chas wouldn't be so infatuated with ashley all of the time. sure, we all love her, here in this miller family. but seriously, get a grip dude, you gotta do something other than being completly obsessed with the girl that lives down in connecticut. i hope he takes me to the movies this weekend. last weekend he said he would take me, but now he's all like...well, maybe. it kind of hurt my feelings when he said that, but whatever. it also annoys me when people who know each other are just blantantly rude and completely ignore your existance and decide not to say hi to you. rude people should go stick their finger up their ass. i've gotta see superman. any takers? oh yeah, thanks mom and dad for going into to meet with my teachers and not tell me about it. that pisses me off. like if you'r egoing to be discussing me then why not tell me about it so i'm mentally prepared. i woke up yesterday morning to find my dad still here and when i asked him why he said, i had a meeting with your guidance counselor today. FUCK WHAT???
ok, this is has been obnoxiously long. i'm thinking about sharing it with others, but probably not. maybe only a few. have a nice day. and if anyone wants to make me a wallpaper. i would love you forever.
for some reason i've gotten an infatuation with daytime tv. all the tv shows that were cancelled are now my calling. here's what i did today: i woke up around 11:30, watched gilmore girls and ate breakfast, then i watched saved by the bell, and went for a run while watching "when star wars ruled the world" or something like that. when i was done, i watched boy meets world (an everyday necessity) and then afterwards i watched what i like about you. that amanda bynes tv show that i've quickly gotten connected to. who knew i was such a sucker for tv shows with bad jokes and outrageous laugh tracks? anyway, afterwards i watched some trl, with owen wilson, kate hudson, AND beyonce. oh, and there were those brando brothers who were like driving some fat black girl in the audience crazy when she was crying. woohoo for looking like an ass on national television. afterwards i went to cranwell and swam 80 laps. i guess it was a spur of the moment thing. but i was looking for a good work out day today, just to feel exra good this evening. now that it's evening, i feel like bologna. no wonder i dont have any friends.
this has been way to long. but now i'm going to move on and talk about the world cup. of course, there was the let down with the united states exiting so early and so disgracefully. it was pretty disappointing if you ask me. but hey, england still had their chance, the team i was rooting for early on. but once they lost (fuck you christiano ronaldo), that was the most devastating end to the tournament. all of the players on the ground, working their ass off after 2 hours of football, only to lose it on penalty kicks. penalty kicks are such shit. it's the worst way to end the game, but hey, i guess it works for the drama. congrats to italy for winning the world cup. i was cheering for france to win because of zinedine zidane, but his play did screw them, and also their second best player was on the bench. so, that led to a win for italy, and the mystery of what was really said between materazzi and zidane. i believe that materazzi called him the son of a terrorist whore or something. nothing else seems practical enough for zidane to completely lose it like that. i also can't stop watching that u2 montage at the end of the world cup. it was so wonderful to see all of the best, worst, and hearbreaking moment of the tournament all thrown together with perfect music in only three minutes. those are the things that get me so happy/sad.
i wish my brothers would accept me to be more apart of their friends group. i know i'm probably the annoying little sister all of the time, but i feel like they have spoiled me over the years and now that geoff is out everynight partying, i wish i could be a part of that, because i am on the right level with all of his friends to be mature enough. only because i'm younger and what not is bullshit. i have the maturity of a 20 year old when i want to, and that's why i don't see my friends enough. it's because i don't laugh at the shitty jokes, or suck up to the popular people. i know that i am just so much better than the shit that happens in high school and that it's going to mean nothing in my future. i wish chas wouldn't be so infatuated with ashley all of the time. sure, we all love her, here in this miller family. but seriously, get a grip dude, you gotta do something other than being completly obsessed with the girl that lives down in connecticut. i hope he takes me to the movies this weekend. last weekend he said he would take me, but now he's all like...well, maybe. it kind of hurt my feelings when he said that, but whatever. it also annoys me when people who know each other are just blantantly rude and completely ignore your existance and decide not to say hi to you. rude people should go stick their finger up their ass. i've gotta see superman. any takers? oh yeah, thanks mom and dad for going into to meet with my teachers and not tell me about it. that pisses me off. like if you'r egoing to be discussing me then why not tell me about it so i'm mentally prepared. i woke up yesterday morning to find my dad still here and when i asked him why he said, i had a meeting with your guidance counselor today. FUCK WHAT???
ok, this is has been obnoxiously long. i'm thinking about sharing it with others, but probably not. maybe only a few. have a nice day. and if anyone wants to make me a wallpaper. i would love you forever.