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I don't know why I'm updating. Lj is pretty lame. Oh well. I'd figure I'd make an update anyways.
Life has been pretty great. Sorry to disappoint you haters. I got accepted into four out of the five colleges I applied to which is quite the accpomplishment. I'm at a total loss as to which one to choose. It's such a difficult decision. Financially, I can only just barely afford to go to LSC but I don't want that. I want to get out of this town once I graduate high school. I have lived in this town my entire life and I need something different. I know I'm not going to become anything here. I'll take a job with Caladonian Record, get married, and have kids. I'm not ready for that.
The past few months have been pretty interesting. I was on a drinking binge for quite awhile. It was great and all but being drunk every weekend loses its fun after awhile. It didn't end well. We all got into a huge fight and that pretty much put an end to our little escapades. I did a few stupid things while intoxicated. Like make out with a few of my close girl friends. But it's all good. No regrets.
Kyle is still in my life. Most people find it hard to understand the relationship we have. Hell, I don't even understand it. Somedays we'll get along like we're best friends, somedays we'll fight like we're enemies, somedays we'll sneak into the back room and do things... Our best times are spent under the star-lit night where he will try to tell me how he feels, but the words never seem to come out. It's all one big mess, but it still somehow makes me happy. Having Kyle in my life has changed me for the better in my opinion. Yeah I have done stupid shit under his influence but I don't regret a second of it. A good friend once asked me, "Is he really worth it?" I replied with, "Yeah. He is." "That's all I wanted to hear." I love this boy. I really do.
Through Kyle, I have met a new circle of friends. People who I once saw roaming the streets and immediatly brushed them off as being scum. These are the people that I now spent my nights with. They remind me of the friends I used to have when I was a freshman. The ones I spent every night with, getting high and being stupid and reckless. Being stupid and reckless is the best thing about being a youth. I had really missed out on that over the past few years. It feels really great to have that element back into my life.
Today was pretty crazy. I don't know who reads this, so I won't give details. Group shower, golden showers, threesome. Use your imagination. I'll never tell.
Enjoy. This will be the last for a while.
Life has been pretty great. Sorry to disappoint you haters. I got accepted into four out of the five colleges I applied to which is quite the accpomplishment. I'm at a total loss as to which one to choose. It's such a difficult decision. Financially, I can only just barely afford to go to LSC but I don't want that. I want to get out of this town once I graduate high school. I have lived in this town my entire life and I need something different. I know I'm not going to become anything here. I'll take a job with Caladonian Record, get married, and have kids. I'm not ready for that.
The past few months have been pretty interesting. I was on a drinking binge for quite awhile. It was great and all but being drunk every weekend loses its fun after awhile. It didn't end well. We all got into a huge fight and that pretty much put an end to our little escapades. I did a few stupid things while intoxicated. Like make out with a few of my close girl friends. But it's all good. No regrets.
Kyle is still in my life. Most people find it hard to understand the relationship we have. Hell, I don't even understand it. Somedays we'll get along like we're best friends, somedays we'll fight like we're enemies, somedays we'll sneak into the back room and do things... Our best times are spent under the star-lit night where he will try to tell me how he feels, but the words never seem to come out. It's all one big mess, but it still somehow makes me happy. Having Kyle in my life has changed me for the better in my opinion. Yeah I have done stupid shit under his influence but I don't regret a second of it. A good friend once asked me, "Is he really worth it?" I replied with, "Yeah. He is." "That's all I wanted to hear." I love this boy. I really do.
Through Kyle, I have met a new circle of friends. People who I once saw roaming the streets and immediatly brushed them off as being scum. These are the people that I now spent my nights with. They remind me of the friends I used to have when I was a freshman. The ones I spent every night with, getting high and being stupid and reckless. Being stupid and reckless is the best thing about being a youth. I had really missed out on that over the past few years. It feels really great to have that element back into my life.
Today was pretty crazy. I don't know who reads this, so I won't give details. Group shower, golden showers, threesome. Use your imagination. I'll never tell.
Enjoy. This will be the last for a while.