[[everybody knew that i loved you, except you]]

[buymykidney]

"i've been out walking,
i don't do too much talking these days.

these days,
these days i seem to think a lot
about the things that i forgot to do
and all the times i had the chance to.

i've stopped my rambling.
i don't do too much gambling
these days. these days.
these days i seem to think
about how all the changes
came about my ways,
and i wonder if i'll see another highway.

i have had a lover,
i don't think i'll risk another
these days. these days.
and if i seem to be afraid to live the life
that i have made in song
it's just that i've been losing so long.

i've stopped my dreaming.
i won't do too much scheming
these days. these days.
these days i sit on corner stones
and count the time
in quarter tones to ten.

please don't confront me with my failures,
i have not forgotten them." - nico.

that song is important. because of how i listened to it a year ago.
and it made me want to rip my heart out and show it to people who don't care.
and now it makes me feel better and stronger and happier.

i am almost a big girl.
still nervous though.

mr. tampon's birthday followed by jack's a la inferno show.
i hope you have a good time, because i will.