[[luke warm fission]]
this time i know.
after a billion short stories about not knowing,
i guess it was bound to come full circle sometime.
it is a strange sort of satisfaction.
going to sleep early, waking late.
sleeping on my back, learning the basics from books,
listening to strangers breathe, eating mallomars,
writing away the-morning-afters, standing when i could just as well sit.
you know it takes so long to learn to live.
to learn that everything will be soft if you wear it down enough,
that everything is only what you make it out to be,
and that reality is, perhaps, just real.
not to say i know how to live, just commenting.
all i can do is comment and continue.
if i spend my whole life wanting what i can't get.
i will only get what i don't want.
and lord knows, i don't want that.
it, sometimes, is good to be reminded.
the truth can't be consistently ignored.
so when it surfaces it is just time to live with it.
it isn't nearly as bad as the movies say it is.
after a billion short stories about not knowing,
i guess it was bound to come full circle sometime.
it is a strange sort of satisfaction.
going to sleep early, waking late.
sleeping on my back, learning the basics from books,
listening to strangers breathe, eating mallomars,
writing away the-morning-afters, standing when i could just as well sit.
you know it takes so long to learn to live.
to learn that everything will be soft if you wear it down enough,
that everything is only what you make it out to be,
and that reality is, perhaps, just real.
not to say i know how to live, just commenting.
all i can do is comment and continue.
if i spend my whole life wanting what i can't get.
i will only get what i don't want.
and lord knows, i don't want that.
it, sometimes, is good to be reminded.
the truth can't be consistently ignored.
so when it surfaces it is just time to live with it.
it isn't nearly as bad as the movies say it is.