Jan 25, 2004 22:43
last night i had some much needed conversations that revolved around the world outside of Boston Universities School of Theatre Arts...and it was wonderful. We also made pancakes at 12:00am and some how ended up taking on roles in a family with ava and chris as the fighting children rebecca as the mother and i as the passive aunt. It was wonderfully good times.
Saw sr thesis tonight (the first set of four) and i came away wanting to do mine now. i'm really glad i get to do that, it inspires me in some weird way and makes me see the places i want to go and think of the range i want to achieve.
this semester so far is going well. and i'm excited to see what will happen...i think voice class is going to be amazing.
I want to do this so bad and i want to do it well and i want...i want... and the question now becomes how do i actualize these wants. I'm hovering terrifies me. I want to risk and throw my soul out for all to see and yet it doesn't seem to want to happen and i feel there is no one willing to receive it. no one who wants to receive it. I stand ready to catch anyone who jumps and i don't think anyone is willing to catch me. I feel i have so much to give and no one to give to.
so i guess i have to start giving into the void and hope that a pair of outstretched arms will emerge and receive what I am offering up. I only hope those arms come soon.