update
ok, so here's my conversation with sean the other night. go me!
its a lot longer then i remembered... but i think it reads fast
Metallica7303: Hey
gibson girlie7: hey
Metallica7303: what are you up to?
gibson girlie7: about 5 shots of rum
gibson girlie7: you?
Metallica7303: not shit
Metallica7303: are you in town?
gibson girlie7: yeah
Metallica7303: but you've probably got company, right?
gibson girlie7: well, no
Metallica7303: really?
gibson girlie7: yeah
Metallica7303: wow
Metallica7303: are you up for some company?
gibson girlie7: i dunno....
gibson girlie7: im kinda drunk
Metallica7303: and?
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: I'll bring some smoke
gibson girlie7: nah i dont do that anymore
Metallica7303: ok, I won't then
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: p-p-please
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: since when were you so desperate?
Metallica7303: lol, I'm not desperate
Metallica7303: I mean if you don't want me to come over it's cool
Metallica7303: I just thought it could be good for both of us
gibson girlie7: ive just had a bad day....
gibson girlie7: i dunno how great i would be
Metallica7303: then let me make it better
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: i dunno
Metallica7303: pretty please
gibson girlie7: dont tempt me
Metallica7303: I'll make it worth your while
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: id prolly pass out before you even got here
Metallica7303: keep yourself occupied and I'll drive fast
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: easier said then done
Metallica7303: you can stay awake, I have faith in you
gibson girlie7: aent you coming over friday with josh?
gibson girlie7: thatd be wierd
gibson girlie7: not jumping each others bones while drunk
Metallica7303: why would it be weird?
Metallica7303: ah
Metallica7303: we can handle it
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: you know you want to
gibson girlie7: i do... i just cant
Metallica7303: yes you can
Metallica7303: I'll call you on my cell and talk to you the whole time I'm driving there to keep you awake
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: no.... i really cant
Metallica7303: you so can
Metallica7303: I'll owe you big
gibson girlie7: how big?
gibson girlie7: lol
Metallica7303: big
gibson girlie7: thats not very discriptive
Metallica7303: big
gibson girlie7: haha
gibson girlie7: niiice
Metallica7303: so?
gibson girlie7: god..... i dunno
Metallica7303: come on
gibson girlie7: why do you want it so bad?
Metallica7303: because I'm deprived and I know you're good
gibson girlie7: damn... good answer....
gibson girlie7: im not on birth control anymore, and that scares me
Metallica7303: I'll pull out
gibson girlie7: yeah, thats not a good answer
Metallica7303: what would be a correct one?
gibson girlie7: condom
Metallica7303: ok, I'll pick one up
gibson girlie7: yeah bt you never keep it on
Metallica7303: well, it's so much better without it
gibson girlie7: yeah but its not worth having kids
Metallica7303: but if that's what it takes then I will
Metallica7303: I agree but as long as I were to pull out soon enough we would be cool
Metallica7303: but I will keep the condom on if I have to
gibson girlie7: it doesnt work that way
gibson girlie7: pulling out i mean
gibson girlie7: brb
Metallica7303: k
Metallica7303: so are you going to let me come over?
gibson girlie7: no
Metallica7303: aww, why not?
gibson girlie7: and i dont think its a good idea for you to come over friday
gibson girlie7: because ive been through a lot lately
Metallica7303: jeez, what the hell did I do
gibson girlie7: you didnt do anything
gibson girlie7: this isnt about you
gibson girlie7: really, youre a good guy
gibson girlie7: its just that im trying to figure a lot out right now
gibson girlie7: and as much as i need the escape.... i cant have it
Metallica7303: you could have it, you just don't wan't it, not from me at least
Metallica7303: but whatever
Metallica7303: don't worry, I won't be there friday
Metallica7303: later on
gibson girlie7: dont be so defensive
gibson girlie7: really sean
gibson girlie7: my grandpa just died, and he was like a father to me
gibson girlie7: i am just dealing with some shit right now
gibson girlie7: its nothing against you, its just that i need to be alone
gibson girlie7: you are a good guy
gibson girlie7: its just that im not in a place for one night stands right now
gibson girlie7: sex is great, its just not an answer
gibson girlie7: ok.... guess youre mad....
gibson girlie7: night
ive never been able to say no before, or to tell him (and a few others) that im not interested. i always want the attention,i need to be with someone, anyone. but then i hate myself for it later. honestly... i think it was my grandpa that helped me with this. i took a breather and kept thinking "i dont want to be that person anymore" and i just felt my grandpa with me.... making it easier to say no. :0)
Happy Birthday Christina!!!
its a lot longer then i remembered... but i think it reads fast
Metallica7303: Hey
gibson girlie7: hey
Metallica7303: what are you up to?
gibson girlie7: about 5 shots of rum
gibson girlie7: you?
Metallica7303: not shit
Metallica7303: are you in town?
gibson girlie7: yeah
Metallica7303: but you've probably got company, right?
gibson girlie7: well, no
Metallica7303: really?
gibson girlie7: yeah
Metallica7303: wow
Metallica7303: are you up for some company?
gibson girlie7: i dunno....
gibson girlie7: im kinda drunk
Metallica7303: and?
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: I'll bring some smoke
gibson girlie7: nah i dont do that anymore
Metallica7303: ok, I won't then
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: p-p-please
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: since when were you so desperate?
Metallica7303: lol, I'm not desperate
Metallica7303: I mean if you don't want me to come over it's cool
Metallica7303: I just thought it could be good for both of us
gibson girlie7: ive just had a bad day....
gibson girlie7: i dunno how great i would be
Metallica7303: then let me make it better
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: i dunno
Metallica7303: pretty please
gibson girlie7: dont tempt me
Metallica7303: I'll make it worth your while
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: id prolly pass out before you even got here
Metallica7303: keep yourself occupied and I'll drive fast
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: easier said then done
Metallica7303: you can stay awake, I have faith in you
gibson girlie7: aent you coming over friday with josh?
gibson girlie7: thatd be wierd
gibson girlie7: not jumping each others bones while drunk
Metallica7303: why would it be weird?
Metallica7303: ah
Metallica7303: we can handle it
Metallica7303: come on
Metallica7303: you know you want to
gibson girlie7: i do... i just cant
Metallica7303: yes you can
Metallica7303: I'll call you on my cell and talk to you the whole time I'm driving there to keep you awake
gibson girlie7: lol
gibson girlie7: no.... i really cant
Metallica7303: you so can
Metallica7303: I'll owe you big
gibson girlie7: how big?
gibson girlie7: lol
Metallica7303: big
gibson girlie7: thats not very discriptive
Metallica7303: big
gibson girlie7: haha
gibson girlie7: niiice
Metallica7303: so?
gibson girlie7: god..... i dunno
Metallica7303: come on
gibson girlie7: why do you want it so bad?
Metallica7303: because I'm deprived and I know you're good
gibson girlie7: damn... good answer....
gibson girlie7: im not on birth control anymore, and that scares me
Metallica7303: I'll pull out
gibson girlie7: yeah, thats not a good answer
Metallica7303: what would be a correct one?
gibson girlie7: condom
Metallica7303: ok, I'll pick one up
gibson girlie7: yeah bt you never keep it on
Metallica7303: well, it's so much better without it
gibson girlie7: yeah but its not worth having kids
Metallica7303: but if that's what it takes then I will
Metallica7303: I agree but as long as I were to pull out soon enough we would be cool
Metallica7303: but I will keep the condom on if I have to
gibson girlie7: it doesnt work that way
gibson girlie7: pulling out i mean
gibson girlie7: brb
Metallica7303: k
Metallica7303: so are you going to let me come over?
gibson girlie7: no
Metallica7303: aww, why not?
gibson girlie7: and i dont think its a good idea for you to come over friday
gibson girlie7: because ive been through a lot lately
Metallica7303: jeez, what the hell did I do
gibson girlie7: you didnt do anything
gibson girlie7: this isnt about you
gibson girlie7: really, youre a good guy
gibson girlie7: its just that im trying to figure a lot out right now
gibson girlie7: and as much as i need the escape.... i cant have it
Metallica7303: you could have it, you just don't wan't it, not from me at least
Metallica7303: but whatever
Metallica7303: don't worry, I won't be there friday
Metallica7303: later on
gibson girlie7: dont be so defensive
gibson girlie7: really sean
gibson girlie7: my grandpa just died, and he was like a father to me
gibson girlie7: i am just dealing with some shit right now
gibson girlie7: its nothing against you, its just that i need to be alone
gibson girlie7: you are a good guy
gibson girlie7: its just that im not in a place for one night stands right now
gibson girlie7: sex is great, its just not an answer
gibson girlie7: ok.... guess youre mad....
gibson girlie7: night
ive never been able to say no before, or to tell him (and a few others) that im not interested. i always want the attention,i need to be with someone, anyone. but then i hate myself for it later. honestly... i think it was my grandpa that helped me with this. i took a breather and kept thinking "i dont want to be that person anymore" and i just felt my grandpa with me.... making it easier to say no. :0)
Happy Birthday Christina!!!