sigh

[buuuh_ree_uh]

the next few weeks are going to be the worst

i already miss the kids that left this morning
i missed the christmas parade
i need a job and a car that works
i need out of Arcata

Dads two year is sunday
i feel like im going to go insane over it
which scares me
i hate this time of year
i really miss Bubu and jackie and heather...and emily,craig,and,kyle
pretty much miss everything i had a few years ago

+Heather might come see me this weekend
which is the only way im going to stay sane

& i want Bubu to come here...&& i want a boy i can love...&&& i wanna be happy

thats all