Some thoughts
... I haven't written in this in a really long time...
...I'm much happier in London then I used to be...
... I know it's nearly Christmas when I get some sort of contact from my eldest cousin asking what the family plans are. He knows I'm just going to ring Mum and yet seems unable to cut out the middle woman. Also I kind of think that one day I should point out that, since he is married and has In-laws he needs to work around, he should be more involved in planning than I.
My plan for Christmas consists of -
Show up.
Do what Mum tells me.
Light candles for Grandma and Grandpa after Midnight Mass 'cause that was mine and Grandpa's thing.
Eat.
Drink.
Be Merry.
Kill anyone who tries to stop me watching the Doctor Who Christmas Special.
It is a simple plan but it is mine own. I don't really need to know all the details until it's happening however, thanks to this habit my cousin seems to have gotten into of checking family arrangements through me, I am always pretty well informed.
Time to start buying presents...
... People suck when they behave badly. The details aren't at all important (or interesting to anyone I know who reads this as you don't know the people) but a friend of mine crossed a line the other night. They were being stupid about another friend and I (and yet another friend who was with me) had to tell them to stop before they said something that couldn't be forgiven. They then accepted they had done wrong and the conversation moved on - until they felt moved to spend another 20 minutes justifying their hissy fit.
I'm sorry. No.
So now I'm kind of sad because they aren't as nice as I thought they were [edit: they are still funny and goodcompany and we're still friends, I hope, despite my melodrama] - plus I sort of told them off so, I suspect, they are now feeling that I'm maybe not as nice as they thought I was. Even though they acknowledged that they had gone too far...
...Work is going better. I've got more of a grip on it now. There are likely a dozen crisiseseses around the corner but I feel like I can handle them better now. There was a moment there when I was doubting if this was something I was meant to do. At the moment I'm leaning on the 'yes' side...
... I'm going to Wales tomorrow on a visit. The Council is paying for a B&B and my evening meal which will be nice. But I sort of wish I was just flopping around the flat...
Love you all.
e.
...I'm much happier in London then I used to be...
... I know it's nearly Christmas when I get some sort of contact from my eldest cousin asking what the family plans are. He knows I'm just going to ring Mum and yet seems unable to cut out the middle woman. Also I kind of think that one day I should point out that, since he is married and has In-laws he needs to work around, he should be more involved in planning than I.
My plan for Christmas consists of -
Show up.
Do what Mum tells me.
Light candles for Grandma and Grandpa after Midnight Mass 'cause that was mine and Grandpa's thing.
Eat.
Drink.
Be Merry.
Kill anyone who tries to stop me watching the Doctor Who Christmas Special.
It is a simple plan but it is mine own. I don't really need to know all the details until it's happening however, thanks to this habit my cousin seems to have gotten into of checking family arrangements through me, I am always pretty well informed.
Time to start buying presents...
... People suck when they behave badly. The details aren't at all important (or interesting to anyone I know who reads this as you don't know the people) but a friend of mine crossed a line the other night. They were being stupid about another friend and I (and yet another friend who was with me) had to tell them to stop before they said something that couldn't be forgiven. They then accepted they had done wrong and the conversation moved on - until they felt moved to spend another 20 minutes justifying their hissy fit.
I'm sorry. No.
So now I'm kind of sad because they aren't as nice as I thought they were [edit: they are still funny and goodcompany and we're still friends, I hope, despite my melodrama] - plus I sort of told them off so, I suspect, they are now feeling that I'm maybe not as nice as they thought I was. Even though they acknowledged that they had gone too far...
...Work is going better. I've got more of a grip on it now. There are likely a dozen crisiseseses around the corner but I feel like I can handle them better now. There was a moment there when I was doubting if this was something I was meant to do. At the moment I'm leaning on the 'yes' side...
... I'm going to Wales tomorrow on a visit. The Council is paying for a B&B and my evening meal which will be nice. But I sort of wish I was just flopping around the flat...
Love you all.
e.