state of depression
I sit here at work, I think, I worry, I fight back tears. I ask myself "why am I sad?" I have no REAL reason to be sad. Just my stupid mind telling me that everything is shit. Nothing bad is happening, yes stress from work, but all people have stress of some kind. So what would make me think that I am any more special then any other person in the world. Jealousness is a bitch, I have no right to be jealous of anyone and what am I jealous about? Feeling alone shouldn't be there, but it is. I need to clear my head, get rid of the negative thoughts I have. But it is really hard when you are already down. Just listen to everyone’s advice, take it for what it is.. advice, it is not a kick while I'm down.
God, I don't even know what I'm crying about. I could see a doctor about this, but meds are addictive. I don't get our generation, we are all cry babies! Boohoo what are we crying about, why are we all depressed? Maybe it's the chemicals in the air, maybe there is some brainwashing device that sends us bad vibes makings us feel sad so we will all run out and buy meds that are government manufactured. It's a thoughts, just think about it.. everyone you know, how many are on anti depressants? Is it a lot?? sure is! More then there should be. It is depressing just to think about all the people in my age group who have "depression".
But are we really depressed or is it what the government tell us to be? Another question would be "how are they controlling this, media, chemicals in the air?
Maybe this is just rambles of a crazy lady, the crazy lady that lives in my head.
God, I don't even know what I'm crying about. I could see a doctor about this, but meds are addictive. I don't get our generation, we are all cry babies! Boohoo what are we crying about, why are we all depressed? Maybe it's the chemicals in the air, maybe there is some brainwashing device that sends us bad vibes makings us feel sad so we will all run out and buy meds that are government manufactured. It's a thoughts, just think about it.. everyone you know, how many are on anti depressants? Is it a lot?? sure is! More then there should be. It is depressing just to think about all the people in my age group who have "depression".
But are we really depressed or is it what the government tell us to be? Another question would be "how are they controlling this, media, chemicals in the air?
Maybe this is just rambles of a crazy lady, the crazy lady that lives in my head.