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There was nothing but her love and affection
She was crazy for you now she’s part of something that you lost
Everything is falling into place. finally. Its werid how you wait your whole life for something and when finally that comes, its too late your already waiting for something else. like i dont know how long i have waited to be 16, to drive. to drink. to have a steady boyfriend. and i have or done them and now im just looking forward to ten others things. Today it really hit me finally i have what as a kid i have always dreamed of and yet i didnt even realize it. Just think about it. when your older you wont be able to remember when you were little and you wont want to remember when your old. so whats left? This. now. the budding time of your life. the years in high school you spend, awkward or not. these are it. in two years from now we wont be able to say see ya next year or tomorrow in school because we wont. just stop for a second when you read this and think i mean it. Stop. look aroudn you at the people you see right now or the pictures becasue tomorrow or in a week or a year they wont be like that and you wont even remember. memories fade but only if you let them leave. the memories we remeber forever are the ones we keep close at heart. My parents have no friends from highschool. they didnt even know each other then. so yea I am definitaly scared. Thnks Kel. half of us wont have problems making friends or meeting new peoepl but what about the other half. i cant imagine leaving high school now. i couldnt imagine better people then who i am with now. and yet i can. i can picture a bigger world out there bigger then us. Paris Rome London. places weve only read about but never seen and dont quite realize theres another billion people in those cities just like us.
Here’s another song for you so this one this one makes two,
I still don’t know to begin, ill just leave it at this
yea i gues you could definitaley qualify this as one of those oh god high school's over kind of entries. but this is more. its about how little the world affects us and in maybe two years we are goign to be thrown into it face first without a clue in the world. i eman honestly how many people cried that day the world trade center crashed down to earth. I didnt. Know why? It didnt feel real. just another movie trying to scare me or terrorize me toward prejudice beliefs. but it didnt affect me personally. I am wishing for graduation because it grants freedom and away from everything thats ever held me back fomr being me. but it also takes away everyhting that made me be me. Kel seriously scared me. yea we arent best friends but just the fact that she might be goign to deleware or Ohio seems far. and i cant picture school without her every seventh period. like i know people that moved away in 8th grade or so and i have never heard from them again. i dont even remeber their names most of the time. and that frightens me. What if i didnt put a big impression on you and you forget me? or i forget you. this is liek everybody is moving in different directions at the same time. to different places. away from here. eveyr body says i cant wait to get out of here away from my parents.but do you realize what youll leave behind? Pottsgrove.. where most of us ate our first thing of glue or kissed a boy on the playground. Can you imagine someone else sitting in ms moores desk going thru her things? or sitting at the lunch table closest to the doors complaining about the cold? or sitting in science praying they dont fall asleep in front of dybach? or running the halls when there nobody in them.? always being late to english and her not caring? If everybody leaves then everybody is left behind. But we will always belong here.
I hope you know you’re my favorite thing about the west coast
The other day i looked at me dad. and i almost cried. he looks so old and aged. He looks almost 60 and i realized he is. at that moment i actually thought about yea maybe I shoudl appreciate him more. talk to him. because for all i know today could be my last. I cant imagine life here without him. The future scares me because of what it is. It is the unknown. I know next year ill be goign ot 11th grade i know what classes ill take. i know kind of who will be in all of them. my summers planned. and i am ready but its after that that i cnat stand. the days i dont have planned for. and yea i know you cnat plan everything but the scariest thing on earth are the htigns we dont know.
k. Sorry for this I was a little bored and just started thinking again.
I’m sure you always feel my eyes on you, but I hope that you will never feel unwanted,