FAILURE!
I feel like I have failed. Like I have gone absolutely no where in coming here. I have only realized the bad things about myself...the things i hate most....i have only wasted my parents money....i have only lost the chance to further develop certain relationships and friendships. The one audition I had planned for the summer is not happening....no eu residence, no working permit, and hence no chance of getting accepted. I fucked up...i wasted my time here...i only realized how the system works in my last months here and now its too late. I now understand the purpose of the school...but what good is that now. Now I just have to return home empty handed...further behind than everyone else. What have I done? I feel failed....I have failed.
And I reckon i can't even be a stripper because i'm too fat and ugly....tried on clothes in H&M...now i know why i don't ever try clothes on...because i am faced with my true self. I have no one to blame but myself.
And I reckon i can't even be a stripper because i'm too fat and ugly....tried on clothes in H&M...now i know why i don't ever try clothes on...because i am faced with my true self. I have no one to blame but myself.