Change
I read something Woody and Dylan O had written me a long time ago, and they told me what a caring person I was, and how I was always looking out for other people.
I've changed.
I've changed for the worse.
I looked at myself in the mirror and said "Abby- it's time to admit that depression has taken over your life. You're and adult now, and so is it, and it's time to face it. No more of this, you have to face it- you're not the loving, happy, and inspiring person you were once, and you've become someone that I never want to see again.
This has to stop. You have to change back."
And I realized that it was all true. I have to get back to that childlike innocence I had and keep it. I realize this year was hard, challenging, stupefying and corrupting and it had to happen and because of this year I can see what happens when I let myself go. I faced my mom and told her to back off on the medication-selling and now I can go on it for myself, I realized that because I've become so distanced from my friends, I can come back and really appreciate them for who they are, and who I am.
I can live again, beucase I've been dead all year.
It's like when you get burned. Your skin first gets hurt, then it gets so disgustingly ugly and painful, and then all the dead skin sloughs off and you get the freshest, purest organ- ready for service. You can also feel things like new on it.
Anyway, I'm off on a walk with mollie.
See ya. and wish me luck.
Abs
I've changed.
I've changed for the worse.
I looked at myself in the mirror and said "Abby- it's time to admit that depression has taken over your life. You're and adult now, and so is it, and it's time to face it. No more of this, you have to face it- you're not the loving, happy, and inspiring person you were once, and you've become someone that I never want to see again.
This has to stop. You have to change back."
And I realized that it was all true. I have to get back to that childlike innocence I had and keep it. I realize this year was hard, challenging, stupefying and corrupting and it had to happen and because of this year I can see what happens when I let myself go. I faced my mom and told her to back off on the medication-selling and now I can go on it for myself, I realized that because I've become so distanced from my friends, I can come back and really appreciate them for who they are, and who I am.
I can live again, beucase I've been dead all year.
It's like when you get burned. Your skin first gets hurt, then it gets so disgustingly ugly and painful, and then all the dead skin sloughs off and you get the freshest, purest organ- ready for service. You can also feel things like new on it.
Anyway, I'm off on a walk with mollie.
See ya. and wish me luck.
Abs