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I find it weird that some of my friends are saying that the are feeling lonely because I think that is how i felt for most of the year. i know i have friends out of my art friends but so does everybody else. next year i am starting a new school with no one i am close to, which is grand. then, some people that i was close to last year, that relationship seems to have disappeared. they are now closer to other people and i know i have gotten closer to others but it always feels like im alone. tonight, i got requests to go places but at the end i didnt. i dont think its as much as the fitting in, but i dont know what it is. i dont want to feel this way but it seems that it is my fault because im always closing people off even though i dont want to.
i think this is one of the reasons why i want a boy in my life, so its like in the movies, but those arent the right reasons for having a boyfriend and i dont want to be dependent on someone else to be happy. i just dont know what i want.
Besides that...today was a boring day with nothing to do even though i have lots to do. for anyone that wants to go to the movies tomorrow tell me. im not sure what movie but i thought it was madagascar but that will probably change...what other movies are out?
i think this is one of the reasons why i want a boy in my life, so its like in the movies, but those arent the right reasons for having a boyfriend and i dont want to be dependent on someone else to be happy. i just dont know what i want.
Besides that...today was a boring day with nothing to do even though i have lots to do. for anyone that wants to go to the movies tomorrow tell me. im not sure what movie but i thought it was madagascar but that will probably change...what other movies are out?