did you sleep on the wrong side?...i'm catching a bad vibe.
when a stranger coughs in public..
i reluctantly look over and pray they've covered their mouths.
i fear their fucking germs.
funny considering where you'll find me if you look hard enough.
funny considering how in the heat of the moment...
how healthy your decisions are...
end up being the last thought on your mind..
lips..
thighs..
..you know..
whatever.
(i sighed out loud.)
i've been thinking lately..(the most dangerous past time): about him. her family. my family. my friends. the old ones. the new ones. love. life. moving. chicago. chicago.................chicago. ugh. life. love. did i say that? thinking about before. myself. growing up. being karmic. healthy minded. letting go. i don't miss you people..but i think about our energy. chanting. laughing. kissing. dancing. screaming. i guess everything comes in phases. everything. so different. so connected. so important...right? v.i.p. no i.d. i'm content where i am...i just hate the thought of letting it go losing. always. in place. laying it down. always. these kids call and i don't care. kids. old. babies. get fat. get skinny. get real. admit it. smile when you don't mean it. smile when you get even. lose out. lose control. contemplate. they say to fall for someone who loves you more. they say not to get hurt. they say do what's necessary. they say follow your heart. heart. that thing that keeps you here. that thing that's gonna take me someplace else. double double this this, double double that that. be ready. prepare. guilt. freedom. know local celebrities...they get you all the best deals. i miss my brothers. i miss not driving. being single. not caring. being verbally wreckless. being secure. being a fucking child. i miss my man. buy things. get things. be smart. find me. remember. smell the air. consider. get over it. love to love. accept the unacceptable. i know you want to take it back. i know it never happens the way you want it to. i think about car rides. your face next to me. years and years. i think about trust. devotion. being feeling alive. safety. cities. going on and on. the next time i'm there..make it worth it. the next time i'm there...make me never want to leave.
i'm on my way.
i reluctantly look over and pray they've covered their mouths.
i fear their fucking germs.
funny considering where you'll find me if you look hard enough.
funny considering how in the heat of the moment...
how healthy your decisions are...
end up being the last thought on your mind..
lips..
thighs..
..you know..
whatever.
(i sighed out loud.)
i've been thinking lately..(the most dangerous past time): about him. her family. my family. my friends. the old ones. the new ones. love. life. moving. chicago. chicago.................chicago. ugh. life. love. did i say that? thinking about before. myself. growing up. being karmic. healthy minded. letting go. i don't miss you people..but i think about our energy. chanting. laughing. kissing. dancing. screaming. i guess everything comes in phases. everything. so different. so connected. so important...right? v.i.p. no i.d. i'm content where i am...i just hate the thought of letting it go losing. always. in place. laying it down. always. these kids call and i don't care. kids. old. babies. get fat. get skinny. get real. admit it. smile when you don't mean it. smile when you get even. lose out. lose control. contemplate. they say to fall for someone who loves you more. they say not to get hurt. they say do what's necessary. they say follow your heart. heart. that thing that keeps you here. that thing that's gonna take me someplace else. double double this this, double double that that. be ready. prepare. guilt. freedom. know local celebrities...they get you all the best deals. i miss my brothers. i miss not driving. being single. not caring. being verbally wreckless. being secure. being a fucking child. i miss my man. buy things. get things. be smart. find me. remember. smell the air. consider. get over it. love to love. accept the unacceptable. i know you want to take it back. i know it never happens the way you want it to. i think about car rides. your face next to me. years and years. i think about trust. devotion. being feeling alive. safety. cities. going on and on. the next time i'm there..make it worth it. the next time i'm there...make me never want to leave.
i'm on my way.