wow two days in a row....
Im finally getting back to updating everyday like i used to....but now that im leaving tomorrow i wont be by a computer till sunday or so...oh well....
Today was a little better than yesterday..i still feel down and depressed over that stupid dream...and now thats all i think about all day..which is probably why im feeling depressed all the time....I just cait help it...I've been keeping all my feelings inside hopeing that they would go way...but they just keep on getting worse...i told my self that if they keep on bothering me after the trip that i would sit down and talk to someone...which that someone would probably sean....since i have no one else to sit down and talk to...but its probably best to talk to him since my dream was about him and I....
Everytime i go to sleep the dream just picks up from where i left off...and it just keeps on getting worse...and i keep on hopeing and praying that it will never come true...and then i have these feelings that if things dont get better that it will come true....
Well sean gave me the idea of staying up all night so i would be super tired tomorrow and sleep the whole drive there..but my eyes hurt from letting so many tears roll out of them...so i'm gonna get some sleep..i'll probably still sleep the whole way there...anyways im gonna try to forget everything and just think about having a really good time and i guess i'll try to keep you guys posted on how i do....later!
Today was a little better than yesterday..i still feel down and depressed over that stupid dream...and now thats all i think about all day..which is probably why im feeling depressed all the time....I just cait help it...I've been keeping all my feelings inside hopeing that they would go way...but they just keep on getting worse...i told my self that if they keep on bothering me after the trip that i would sit down and talk to someone...which that someone would probably sean....since i have no one else to sit down and talk to...but its probably best to talk to him since my dream was about him and I....
Everytime i go to sleep the dream just picks up from where i left off...and it just keeps on getting worse...and i keep on hopeing and praying that it will never come true...and then i have these feelings that if things dont get better that it will come true....
Well sean gave me the idea of staying up all night so i would be super tired tomorrow and sleep the whole drive there..but my eyes hurt from letting so many tears roll out of them...so i'm gonna get some sleep..i'll probably still sleep the whole way there...anyways im gonna try to forget everything and just think about having a really good time and i guess i'll try to keep you guys posted on how i do....later!