needs some answers
okay so... I moved back in... thinking, we can get through this. Everyone is mad at B and B still doesn't see what he did wrong. Everyone is mad at me for not leaving including his friends. My self- esteem hurts, my heart hurts, I don't understand why he would want to hurt me.... I just want some answers. I am so lost, I mean he was supposed to be the one for me, my best friend... what happened?? Why is he doing this to me??? B slept all day long yesterday, Lavone says he feels guilty. But I am upset beyond means, I don't know what to do.. I no longer trust him. I feel myself distancing away, I feel myself not myself anymore. He seems so far away now, I can no longer trust him. I am so hurt, upset, lost, confused.... I just want answers... because I don't know what the right thing to do is... I feel like Ia m going insane... yet this is my home... I made this my home, my friends are here, my dog is here, this is where I made myself a home... anywhere else, adn I go insane... thats why I am here... but I don't want him here. I don't know if that makes sense... but I made this my home, why do I ahve to leave... so I stay but distance myself from him. Eric is upset with me, my mother is upset because she doesn;t think B is going to true... WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME?! WASN'T I PICKING THE NICE-GUYS FINISH LAST GUY??? WASN'T I PICKING THE GOOD ONE THIS TIME!! AND STILL!!! STILL I AM IN TEARS!!! I am so confused, help me, God.