Starting Off
Well okay, there is too much back ground information for you guys to even understand my relationship with B so I guess I won't even go into that until later. B is truly a great guy... he is just clueless in some areas about women. He doesn't understand that they are sensitive, he doesn't understand that they get jealous, he doesn't understand that, yes, when you say something like-"hey, if you ever wanted a boob job, I would pay for it"- actually is scarring. Don't get me wrong he has his moments and can be a truly great guy and we are completely compatible... but he just has these errors in the brain... almost like a computer with a virus you can't fix so it keeps doing crazy things like turning off by itself or something... yet you keep it because its handy, its been there forever, and it has everything you ever loved stored on it. Okay bad example... but I do love him but sometimes he makes it hard for me to love him. Like for instance today we were watching t.v. and it was the "the littlest groom"- its like the bachelor but only for midgets. Anyway there was this very attractive midget on there and him and his friends were all like eyeing her... anyway, this I don't care... but then my beloved boyfriend goes onto to say- "I would hit it. " Yeah, prince charming- he is. I told him to shutup, and that i don't do that to him... his friends remained silent... I just wish for once that one of friends would just tell him what an asshole he can be because he doesn't see it. He thinks he is mr. perfect... he doesn't care if I get hurt because HE doesn't see a reason why i should be hurt therefore my feelings are insignificant. And when I try to talk to him about it he somehow makes me feel bad about feeling upset... aren't I allowed to have feelings? I mean this sort of thing makes me want to cry.... I don't understand love... its like once you find a guy who won't cheat on you... you have to wonder if the other things he does besides cheating are worthy of breakup. I mean you have times where you are like- thats it... I am gone and then there are times like- this too shall pass. I mean- I am not afraid to be alone... its just that this is the best boyfriend I have ever had... what if I make a mistake. Anyway, enough for tonight.. there are good things about him. I will tell about my awesome Valentine's Day later. Anyway, good night.