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Coffee tonight was nice. :)
I was kinda (really) nervous at the beginning, but ya know... it was just the same old Erin. It's probably gonna take a bit to get used to being around her again, but it's so nice to have her back in my life. Comforting. :)
And definitely nice to know that if you love someone, you never know when they're going to come back into your life. I kinda feel like I got a bit of my faith (what faith, I can't really explain right now, but just... faith) back tonight. Like maybe life isn't so grey after all. That it's okay to believe. It gives me hope for a few other people in my life.
<*quiet>
I know that Danielle has warned me repeatedly not to trust her, because she might stop talking to me again, but ya know... even if that happens... I'm just really happy to have seen her and talked to her again. I feel okay now. If she decides she doesn't want to be my friend, that's up to her. I'm just happy that I got to see her. :) I mean, I don't really have anything to lose anymore... I'd just be right back to where I am right now.
However, I always was the one who never gave up... lately, I've been feeling like I've become such a blah version of my self. Without faith, what am I, right? Without faith, and love, what is the point of life?
It was nice being around her just for the mere fact that I'm comfortable to talk to her. It's like damn... she's probably one of the people that knows me the best... what can I say that can shock her? (although the puking story seemed to do just that, but that's rare;) ) It's comforting to be around someone that already knows you so well that you don't have to worry about being someone you're not.
Anyways... enough blathering. Must take a shower and hit the sack soon, at least by 2.
Erin invited me to go to Lafayette some weekend, that'd be nice. I'll probably go if she invites me... I so never go anywhere anymore. I'm just... tired... of going out with people I don't want to be around. Which is most people these days.
~*Amanda
I was kinda (really) nervous at the beginning, but ya know... it was just the same old Erin. It's probably gonna take a bit to get used to being around her again, but it's so nice to have her back in my life. Comforting. :)
And definitely nice to know that if you love someone, you never know when they're going to come back into your life. I kinda feel like I got a bit of my faith (what faith, I can't really explain right now, but just... faith) back tonight. Like maybe life isn't so grey after all. That it's okay to believe. It gives me hope for a few other people in my life.
<*quiet>
I know that Danielle has warned me repeatedly not to trust her, because she might stop talking to me again, but ya know... even if that happens... I'm just really happy to have seen her and talked to her again. I feel okay now. If she decides she doesn't want to be my friend, that's up to her. I'm just happy that I got to see her. :) I mean, I don't really have anything to lose anymore... I'd just be right back to where I am right now.
However, I always was the one who never gave up... lately, I've been feeling like I've become such a blah version of my self. Without faith, what am I, right? Without faith, and love, what is the point of life?
It was nice being around her just for the mere fact that I'm comfortable to talk to her. It's like damn... she's probably one of the people that knows me the best... what can I say that can shock her? (although the puking story seemed to do just that, but that's rare;) ) It's comforting to be around someone that already knows you so well that you don't have to worry about being someone you're not.
Anyways... enough blathering. Must take a shower and hit the sack soon, at least by 2.
Erin invited me to go to Lafayette some weekend, that'd be nice. I'll probably go if she invites me... I so never go anywhere anymore. I'm just... tired... of going out with people I don't want to be around. Which is most people these days.
~*Amanda