It's My Life

Feb 07, 2010 20:16

I have always been the one who loaned money to a person who really needed it, even if it was a odd situation. Friends and family who ended up in a hard place were always covered, if I could give it.  Funny thing is if I ever ended up in a situation similar to there's or worse. I never expected any kind of hand out. Still don't. Funny thing is I was never offered the same common courtesy.

I have never really had many finical struggles. I'm only 27, and have been doing just fine. But there will be a time and a place I will screw things up. Cancer and a wedding has kind of done that, with a few other things that are minor; but when you combine them, it can get pretty scary.

So none the less, my credit scores are not as great as it was five years ago, but who cares. I will work through it and fight  with every tooth and nail, and filter it all back in to shape.

I DON'T EXPECT  ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.  (Unless your up for advice.)

I just want the world to stop thinking I can be walked all over. It's not happening folks. Try it,  I will more then likely walk away, fallow me, and I will chew your head off. I can be a real bitch when I want to, I just enjoy not being one all the time.

I have always had to start at the bottom and work my way up. I never really got everything I WANTED, I always had to work for it. That is what I was taught. I also know I will never get everything I want. (We only want things we can't have.)

I am the oldest of seven siblings, and the oldest of eight-teen grandchildren. I was raised by my mother, who did her best with four kids and two ex-husbands (who barley paid child support), and my father really had little to do with my life, except  for giving me three other siblings. otherwise I'm lucky to get a phone call from him on my Birthday. (which is very rare.)

I have been Independent since I was fourteen, and on my own since I was twenty. I still have to prove to my mother I'm okay, even after being married for over a year, but as she puts it I am her "First Born" and she does get to spazz about me growing up. (Just waite till I have kids...scary)

I have lived a hard life, I had fun along the way, but it was hard. I had to grow up faster then I wanted too at some parts, and others were not so fast. It's funny how most people view me as being older then I really am, with all the knowledge and experiences I have had in such a short time. I still have much to learn and lots to do, I just have an "Old Soul" as I call it.

So it will work out some way, some how. It always does. It may not be the way I want it to, or in the time I think it should be in, but it always ends for the best. That is all I can hope for.

I'm a fighter, I will succeed with what ever life throws at me, just look at every thing I have accomplished, lived through, and grown stronger from.

life, family, thyroid, mom, cancer, future thoughts, brian, friends

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