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After coming to a grinding halt a couple of months ago my life has been in some sort of torturously stagnant limbo. I'd spent hours praying for something, anything different to happen and to my dismay I got signal after signal to just sit still.
I remember when my mother moved me and herself from New Orleans to a suburban North Carolina town and I had to attend my last year of primary school in a rigidly stale environment. I came from a much more liberal background and I was ridiculed and ostracized for how they perceived me. I felt like a dissected animal whose skin was peeled open, stretched and pinned back to leave everything raw and exposed. All I wanted was to be accepted and liked for the sensitive and radiant child I was. I had no choice but to stand up for myself and endure that state of limbo until I was finished with primary school and ready to move on to a much more liberal secondary school in the next city.
I have finally been given the go ahead to move forward and the gears are starting to turn faster and faster, pulling me out of the quicksand and into a future brighter than I ever could have imagined. I am following my heart, but this time I do not have to compromise.
I have a new skin.
I remember when my mother moved me and herself from New Orleans to a suburban North Carolina town and I had to attend my last year of primary school in a rigidly stale environment. I came from a much more liberal background and I was ridiculed and ostracized for how they perceived me. I felt like a dissected animal whose skin was peeled open, stretched and pinned back to leave everything raw and exposed. All I wanted was to be accepted and liked for the sensitive and radiant child I was. I had no choice but to stand up for myself and endure that state of limbo until I was finished with primary school and ready to move on to a much more liberal secondary school in the next city.
I have finally been given the go ahead to move forward and the gears are starting to turn faster and faster, pulling me out of the quicksand and into a future brighter than I ever could have imagined. I am following my heart, but this time I do not have to compromise.
I have a new skin.