What's up?

[butterflyvixon]

I have an issue guys. Not that I don't always have an issue, because I do... One issue or another. But this issue is bugging me, it has to do with Ash. I feel like she hates me. Or just is avoiding me right now. Why? I wanna know why? I do not understand. Does she hate me? Or is she just really confused right now? If it's the fact that I didn't speak to her husband. I'm sorry. But you know I've been going through alot of shit lately, and you know.. I'm sorry.. I made a mistake for not speaking. But sometimes I just don't like to speak. And you know. He didn't make much of an effort either. The reason I didn't talk had absolutely nothing to do with the other night when I walked out of Ash and Ben's apartment. I got over that about three days after it happened. But they wouldn't know that .. Because they haven't made anything other than one move to find out what's going on. And you know that is too bad on my part and theirs.. Because I really enjoyed their friendships. It is just Ben and I have our issues. I don't know how to take him sometime. And it looks as though I will never learn how to. Because neither one of them are gonna give me a chance. Which sucks. But you know that is life. Someone I care very deeply about once said YOu gotta role with the punches. And you know what ...I am. But anywho. THat is it on that subject. We will see where I stand if and when they ever wanna talk things out.
(I'm sticking up for myself now)