i don't know why
so i know this may sound mean or whatever but i am getting with two different guys right now. The one i like alot but he doesn't want a realationship and the other one likes me alot. I had a serious bf last year and all of a sudden he broke things off. I was hurt and didn't know what else to do so i just started getting with guys for fun. Now i'm getting bored with that i want something more again. I want to feel wanted. Like my time is spend well. And that the other person likes me as much as i like them. I understand the whole idea that when your not looking for it it will come. But the thing is i haven't been looking. I haven't wanted it but now that i do it is no place to be found. I see girls around me and friends who have these wonderful bfs and i just don't understand. I get told i'm beautiful, and pretty all the time. I get told that i'm a cool person to hang out with. Guys like that i'm not like other girls. But what i don't get at that point if i am pretty and different and fun than why am i not good enough. Why can't i find a guy who will fight me on a topic but not make me feel bad, or someone who makes plans instead of pushing it on me. Someone who isn't ok with sitting around and watching tv all day and night, they want to do something different. I just don't understand. I am not normally this way, i've just had a really bad week. someone told me once that i'm too picky that i'll never find anyone to match my list, but the thing is that list has been broken so many times and still no luck. i know no one can give me answers i just wish this was easier. I wish that i found good guys like my friends do.