need to vent
ok so lately i have been feeling so alone but why i feel this way i can't tell you.
My best friend is still my best friend, my other best friend is going the same college as me.
I don't have a boyfriend but i think that is what best for me right now, i am about to go off to college in a few months, plus i am hanging out with a few different guys who are all great.
My other friends i feel are pulling away but i knew that was going to happen since we are going to different colleges away.
i don't know why i feel like this and of course i wish i didn't. I guess i want answers but i know no one has them.
Maybe its all me, maybe i'm the one that is pulling away. I am use to be being on my own, little close friends, and people leaving. It kills me that just maybe its me that is doing all this in some werid way to make myself not feel bad about saying goodbye, i've never been to good with goodbyes. I don't know. Maybe my friends aren't that great of friends and this is just starting to show b.c we are all leaving and don't care anymore.
Like i said way too many times all ready...i just don't know.
i hate feeling this way, i'm a happy person not sad so when i feel sad for no reason i get mad at myself too.
i know no one can actually help but writing it down helps, and hoping that maybe someone out there is actually reading this and actually caring makes it seem less like me talking to meself and more like venting or something.
well thanks...hope to get on soon.
i have a pretty good weekend coming up so hopefully that will bring my sprits up.
My best friend is still my best friend, my other best friend is going the same college as me.
I don't have a boyfriend but i think that is what best for me right now, i am about to go off to college in a few months, plus i am hanging out with a few different guys who are all great.
My other friends i feel are pulling away but i knew that was going to happen since we are going to different colleges away.
i don't know why i feel like this and of course i wish i didn't. I guess i want answers but i know no one has them.
Maybe its all me, maybe i'm the one that is pulling away. I am use to be being on my own, little close friends, and people leaving. It kills me that just maybe its me that is doing all this in some werid way to make myself not feel bad about saying goodbye, i've never been to good with goodbyes. I don't know. Maybe my friends aren't that great of friends and this is just starting to show b.c we are all leaving and don't care anymore.
Like i said way too many times all ready...i just don't know.
i hate feeling this way, i'm a happy person not sad so when i feel sad for no reason i get mad at myself too.
i know no one can actually help but writing it down helps, and hoping that maybe someone out there is actually reading this and actually caring makes it seem less like me talking to meself and more like venting or something.
well thanks...hope to get on soon.
i have a pretty good weekend coming up so hopefully that will bring my sprits up.