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Everybody tagged that tagged me. Really tired. Like, tired to death and still have a few things to do.
I get sad, you know? I'm doing good with things, with the getting depressed and all that, and then all of a sudden some small thing will trigger me being sad again. Crying all over the place kinda sad. I wish that would just never happen any longer.
It feels weird too, you know, a year of being obsessed with the Est and now I'm sort of not and instead of being all enthusiastic it's harder to pull tags out and I hate that. Hate it. I still love all my pairings and my co-writers but my brain just...won't go there as easily.
I went back and looked at some of my old posts and how enthusiastic I was. Almost innocent in a way. I feel like I lost something a little.
/ends ramble #20576
I get sad, you know? I'm doing good with things, with the getting depressed and all that, and then all of a sudden some small thing will trigger me being sad again. Crying all over the place kinda sad. I wish that would just never happen any longer.
It feels weird too, you know, a year of being obsessed with the Est and now I'm sort of not and instead of being all enthusiastic it's harder to pull tags out and I hate that. Hate it. I still love all my pairings and my co-writers but my brain just...won't go there as easily.
I went back and looked at some of my old posts and how enthusiastic I was. Almost innocent in a way. I feel like I lost something a little.
/ends ramble #20576