What's appropriate that I should possess?
I think maybe this little survey will help me structure my thoughts for the day a little better... i got this from Xtine... :)
1.)Q. Can you cook?
A. When I have instructions, sure! I can bake pretty well, too.
2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
A. To be a singer.
3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
A. To be able to play piano and guitar.
4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A. Water, por favor.
5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
A. Carrots or string beans.
6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
A. "A Year in the World", by Frances Mayes. It was actually pretty good.
7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
A. Virgo.
8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
A. One bellybutton ring.
9.)Q. Worst Habit?
A. Procrastination and harrowing self - depreciation.
10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A. Haha, chances are you'd (xtine) already be in my car.
11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
A. Baseball.
12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A. Usually optimistic...although REALLY negative right now...
13. )Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A. Fart! Hehe
14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A. It might be this...
15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you.
A. I don't have pierced ears!
16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
A. No, but I want a dog.
17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A. THAT WOULD BE THE BEST THING EVER!
18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
A. "She's who's girlfriend?!"
19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A. They didn't scare me until I started working for Horror Nights...now they creep me out a little.
20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how your look, what would it be?
A. Smaller boobs. This is no joke.
21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A. Partner in crime! Always!
22.)Q. What color eyes do you have?
A. Brown.
Q. Ever been arrested?
A. No.
24.)Q. Bottle or can pop?
A. Um...can?
25.)Q. If you won $10,000,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
A. Buy a Jeep, give the rest away.
26.)Q. If you could, would you date me?
A. I feel as though I already have!
27)Q. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
A. At work, ironically. We have a good time.
28.)Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
A. Undecided.
29.)Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A. Catch up on everything I was supposed to do, or work out.
30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
A. I casually drop swears WAY too much...
31.)Q. Biggest pet peeve?
A. Self-centered people!! AHHHH!
32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A. Encompassing.
33.)Q. Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A. It's dead to me right now.
34.)Q. If you could spend 12 hours with me and ask/do anything you like, what would it be?
A. Actually, I would love to spend a day in Noho with you again!!!
35)Q. Do you believe in God?
A. Yes. Absolutely.
36.)Q. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A. Uh huh!
Today (and this week for that matter) have been one of the worst on record. I feel so absolutely stupid and idiotic and like a complete fool. I was really hoping that by now, at this point in my life, I would have learned better. I feel as though these are life lessons I should have learned freshman year of college.
I am in a relationship where I constantly just feel guilty. I feel guilty for every hour I don't spend at home, with him. I don't feel like I have the room / space to properly search for myself, my goals, my happiness, my joy. I wish the Kristin from a few years ago would come to the future now and kick my ass into....something. I feel like a big shell. There's just vapid stuff beneath the surface.
I feel like a fool for liking someone else, who doesn't even give me the time of day. I am tired of feeling like a big awkward turkey in front of them. I really wanted to believe that they were different, that I shouldn't believe the hype and the early warning signs of disaster. I can't help but feel like I deserve all of this happening to me. I am striving to be a better person everyday. I am trying so hard. I want to believe in good things for myself again. I want to dream again.
Thank you for listening to the rant, and now I'll work on the bouncing back process....
1.)Q. Can you cook?
A. When I have instructions, sure! I can bake pretty well, too.
2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
A. To be a singer.
3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
A. To be able to play piano and guitar.
4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A. Water, por favor.
5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
A. Carrots or string beans.
6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
A. "A Year in the World", by Frances Mayes. It was actually pretty good.
7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
A. Virgo.
8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
A. One bellybutton ring.
9.)Q. Worst Habit?
A. Procrastination and harrowing self - depreciation.
10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A. Haha, chances are you'd (xtine) already be in my car.
11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
A. Baseball.
12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A. Usually optimistic...although REALLY negative right now...
13. )Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A. Fart! Hehe
14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A. It might be this...
15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you.
A. I don't have pierced ears!
16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
A. No, but I want a dog.
17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A. THAT WOULD BE THE BEST THING EVER!
18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
A. "She's who's girlfriend?!"
19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A. They didn't scare me until I started working for Horror Nights...now they creep me out a little.
20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how your look, what would it be?
A. Smaller boobs. This is no joke.
21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A. Partner in crime! Always!
22.)Q. What color eyes do you have?
A. Brown.
Q. Ever been arrested?
A. No.
24.)Q. Bottle or can pop?
A. Um...can?
25.)Q. If you won $10,000,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
A. Buy a Jeep, give the rest away.
26.)Q. If you could, would you date me?
A. I feel as though I already have!
27)Q. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
A. At work, ironically. We have a good time.
28.)Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
A. Undecided.
29.)Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A. Catch up on everything I was supposed to do, or work out.
30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
A. I casually drop swears WAY too much...
31.)Q. Biggest pet peeve?
A. Self-centered people!! AHHHH!
32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A. Encompassing.
33.)Q. Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A. It's dead to me right now.
34.)Q. If you could spend 12 hours with me and ask/do anything you like, what would it be?
A. Actually, I would love to spend a day in Noho with you again!!!
35)Q. Do you believe in God?
A. Yes. Absolutely.
36.)Q. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A. Uh huh!
Today (and this week for that matter) have been one of the worst on record. I feel so absolutely stupid and idiotic and like a complete fool. I was really hoping that by now, at this point in my life, I would have learned better. I feel as though these are life lessons I should have learned freshman year of college.
I am in a relationship where I constantly just feel guilty. I feel guilty for every hour I don't spend at home, with him. I don't feel like I have the room / space to properly search for myself, my goals, my happiness, my joy. I wish the Kristin from a few years ago would come to the future now and kick my ass into....something. I feel like a big shell. There's just vapid stuff beneath the surface.
I feel like a fool for liking someone else, who doesn't even give me the time of day. I am tired of feeling like a big awkward turkey in front of them. I really wanted to believe that they were different, that I shouldn't believe the hype and the early warning signs of disaster. I can't help but feel like I deserve all of this happening to me. I am striving to be a better person everyday. I am trying so hard. I want to believe in good things for myself again. I want to dream again.
Thank you for listening to the rant, and now I'll work on the bouncing back process....