sadder than i ever imagined!
so today was the day... They left......... The last of my friends that i had down here are gone...... I went to the farwell ceremony it was one of the saddest things i have ever had to go through. Everyone please keep the 3rd ID in your hearts they are going back to iraq for the 2nd deployment...
I'm soaked in rain and everything around me breaks like glass. I wonder why such a time in my life has to be so blood drenched. Where is all of this going? As I head down this path alone... seeking... what? Seeking sanity, comfort, family that is so not here. War. War is taking my friends. Taking my second half which is tearing my heart to shreds. I'm stuck with no explanation. Where is my best friend? I'm carrying my whole family on my back as everyone else continues with their lives, all around me. Normal. Happy. Am I strong enough, Lord? To handle this obstacle you’ve given? I don't want to be Job. I don't want my life and family taken away. He'll come back. Wont he? I cannot sleep, eat, or do anything but worry. I need someone here, but whom? Emptiness claims my soul and I'm dragging my feet through the mud. Half of those soldiers that I talked to... will they return? Or will their letters to me just stop abruptly? All these families, crying soldiers grasping onto their oblivious children for the last time ... That moment will be cemented in my mind for eternity. Why??? Why does this have to happen? Why is my comfort being torn away? Why do I keep dreading the next moment... what I will see next. All I can do is stare at this blank screen now. Everything that has happened so fast the past couple of weeks have actually sunk in, and for once, I'm a wreck. No words of comfort can solve this. I need love so much... but it's not there. I can't do this anymore... I just can't...
I'm soaked in rain and everything around me breaks like glass. I wonder why such a time in my life has to be so blood drenched. Where is all of this going? As I head down this path alone... seeking... what? Seeking sanity, comfort, family that is so not here. War. War is taking my friends. Taking my second half which is tearing my heart to shreds. I'm stuck with no explanation. Where is my best friend? I'm carrying my whole family on my back as everyone else continues with their lives, all around me. Normal. Happy. Am I strong enough, Lord? To handle this obstacle you’ve given? I don't want to be Job. I don't want my life and family taken away. He'll come back. Wont he? I cannot sleep, eat, or do anything but worry. I need someone here, but whom? Emptiness claims my soul and I'm dragging my feet through the mud. Half of those soldiers that I talked to... will they return? Or will their letters to me just stop abruptly? All these families, crying soldiers grasping onto their oblivious children for the last time ... That moment will be cemented in my mind for eternity. Why??? Why does this have to happen? Why is my comfort being torn away? Why do I keep dreading the next moment... what I will see next. All I can do is stare at this blank screen now. Everything that has happened so fast the past couple of weeks have actually sunk in, and for once, I'm a wreck. No words of comfort can solve this. I need love so much... but it's not there. I can't do this anymore... I just can't...